i actually made this a couple years ago lmao

gilburger... he'd be one of those upscale half pound tavern burgers that cost like $25

gil actually cooks for once in his life (thru no talent of his own mind you he used some bs from his treasury) and won't let me/yule get up from the breakfast table until i give him at least 20 minutes worth of praise

i... i think lady oscar has gotten to me more than i realized. might officially add her to the list...

zero gil with his more mature sexiness was perfect for me at age 15, which is probably why i fell in love with him instantly, but if i /had/ gotten into fate when i was younger, DEEN gil would have been perfect for me at age 12 bc hes super along the likes of what i was into at the time

maybe i should make an AU where yule is there along with all of his other love interests at the same time... i could be an irl fujo with him and kirei, and hakuno and i could take turns femdoming him. enkidu would tease him and make him open up more to everyone else

that being said i dont really think i'd call him polyamorous, bc i dont think he would definite "being in a relationship" the same way a modern person would. like nero and hakuno are absolutely poly, but gil's desires kind of ebb and flow and change without labels

im sure its specifically because we see that gil can be in love with multiple people in canon that lets me really embrace both selfshipping and normal shipping with him at the same time. and that goes for seeing other peoples yumeships with him too!

he'd say something about how if i was anyone else there'd already be no trace of my remains

teacher kink //

the appeal of the teacher lies hand-in-hand with voyeurism. it is to watch and admire from afar. seeing glimpses of them alone in their office. do they know about your love? there is no way to tell. they are a mystery veiled behind kindness and a podium

teacher kink //

-no longer function as that ideal. i think it works for short one-offs and smut but anything more long form than that shatters the fantasy. this is why the ideal is to be as close to them as possible without ever making a move

teacher kink //

the appeal of the teacher is lost in a teacher/student relationship. it is the allure of having someone mature who can can look after you while their personal life is shrouded in mystery. you get rare glimpses sometimes but the moment you become part of their personal life they-

that being said i'll always tag stuff ofc. i understand watersports in particular aren't for everyone

for such a long time i've been really embarrassed of talking about my kinks on main... well, "main" being nsfw account and not a kink-specific account. but given *gestures vaguely* i feel like i want to try accepting that having kinks isnt a big deal and i shouldn't be ashamed of it...

imagining gil wanting to have kids with hakuno as they go on their space journey, but he somehow gets alien mpreg'd first. hakuno thinks its funny

the other reason i have a sona that is more of my ideal self in appearance is that if it was how i look irl it would just look like hakuno with mekakure

why does the sims have no hair with mekakure

trying to make Yule in the sims is what has made me realize i dont have any hobbies outside of writing and occasionally drawing 🧍‍♂️

that being said tho i don't mind at all if you call her Lolly

While I do think of myself as more of a self-shipper compared to OCxCanon, given I do have an irl fiancee and all I wanted to have a level of separation present, thus the difference in our name/appearance (don't worry kitsu knows and is OK with this!)

I guess I should formally introduce my self-insert! You might know them as my streamer avatar. This is Yule (she/they/he). Has the power to change between male and female forms. Other than powers and appearance is basically me.

wanna draw more of him🐴🍆 #lollysart

Intro post! I'm Lolly (she/they/he), 27. This account is for a combination of self-shipping and just generally NSFW content.

I mainly self-ship with Gilgamesh, but will also dabble with Chiron and some others as well. Doubles are welcome!

CW: guro, dubcon, teacher kink, watersports