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Christopher Red

@redpandachris.bsky.social

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35m Red Panda babyfur dad. Demisexual, scared, sensitive, want people to stop assuming who i am and just try to get to know me without forcing their assumptions constantly.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · Apr 22

If you knew, or know anyone who knew, Eecho, in the past, tell them I want to apologize for being an ass, I've spent 3 years working on myself, and made a huge break through this week clearing out my toxic garbage so I want to thank those who left in the past, it helped me get here. No sarcasm.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 5h

Actually this gives me hope. I've been doing that lately and the same thing is happening to me. But realizing these relationships were using me for their own benefit not caring about me. You aren't doing something nice for yourself to them. You're telling them no and its an unhealthy relationship

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 5h

Right?! Thats kind what I want now in my 30s

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 5h

"Cant come out full moon tonight" "dude isn't the full moon thing a myth? You said you just do it when you want" "yeeeeeah... bye" the antisocial lycanthrope

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 5h

I have been peeing too much lately.

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

Exactly. 16 sucked for me irl. But I wanna do what 16 year olds while being smarter about things. Make thr mistakes I never made and can't anymore. But in a safe and controlled way.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

I will say love seeing bigger little ages. Its been hard explaining my "little age" is 16 but the same way another little can go "mine is 2"

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

Cousins.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

Not the sex, but that connection. So I always thought it was one night stands, then after crying after like my 7th one I realized. Its not the sex, its I got what they thought I wanted, but I want the closeness, and even still I can change in the future. This stuff is mutable identity is.

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

Fixated on the homo part. Instantly bringing me into that false reality of what "gay" meant. And people never picked up i was into the commitment not the sex. Porn is nice to me. Only when people are into it there is that passion and joy, because its what I want out of my relationships

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

Exactly what im talking about. But then to people you'll always be x. No matter how open minded they are. And thats the part that annoys me. I thought i was cis het male. Im fluid demi homo. I was scared of being gay not because I hated myself for being gay. But because I was demi. And people

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

In it of itself isnt bad, its the fact people who act fluidly with who they are though tend to be the harshest critics on when they are used as a fixed concept and dont like people evolving or flowing. If that makes sense

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

I think the issue is have with labels is they are a fixed concept used on mutable concepts

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

So this is chels, adoptable from @juneberrysprout.bsky.social and I love her to pieces, and she's a bouncy valley girl now.

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

waiting for @emmypup.bsky.social to wake up, because I forgot she got me an Adoptable of a Golden Labby girl. and Realized I NEED Chelsea, my goldie, to BE HARLOW FOR HALLOWEEN! I NEED IT! Happy Pride Pan puppo valley girl cosplay as Other Goldie girl.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 6h

devil, three of swords.

Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 9h

I don't like combat all that much, so I like mods where I focus on building over having to fight to advance. MA just is growing Resources as flowers instead of harvesting it.

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Christopher Red @redpandachris.bsky.social · 9h

had to take a break. I got into Immersive Engineering and it's having me do stuff that I can't just gen resources without Mythical Agriculture to make. I mean I can, but I need the Materials to get to Tier 4, but I need Tier 4 to produce.