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@reliefdystopia.bsky.social

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i get on here to chill and vent notice: ‼️ DONT SCROLL MY PAGE IF YOURE NOT A FOLLOWER. this acc is very personal and there are things i rather people not see, ok got it? you got it. have a nice day

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幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Mar 4

byf + dni

❄️ will vent and send extremely random stuff here
❄️ no reposting if i disabled quote tweets
❄️ will block and unblock freely
❄️ (will update this with time)

i use they/them!

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · 10d

kind of exhausting having to switch subjects abruptly everytime you interrupt me talking about myself to talk about yourself but it’s okay, you need it to survive

i want you to talk about yourself to me even if it’s extremely exhausting for me to listen, because i know you’ll feel bad if you don’t…

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · 11d

im very normal about them

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · 13d

yes, i want to care but cant find it in myself to do so fully, so i wish the best for all that are suffering… yes, i feel like im not built for being with people but im trying my best when i can.

(partially a rant but theres no need for greater concern, i just need to be heard.)

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · 13d

yes, im disconnected and detached as fuck, yes, i dislike the world we live in, yes, i may come off as cold or unfriendly in real life sometimes and im aware of it, yes, i hate being a stranger to myself nonetheless, ++

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · 13d

yes, i kin him

yes, i struggle with reciprocating nice acts but still don’t mind receiving them, yes, i cant maintain more than 0.5 relationships at a time, yes, im too petty for my own good, yes, i assume interactions will go badly before they even start so i just give up on them altogether, ++

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Oct 1

It’s just one more day. I’ll live.

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Oct 1

The feeling I have now is wanting to say something about how I’m feeling but it’s so complicated I cannot get the exact words out for it except for 99.99% numb acceptance with a side of “I am aware I caused this and don’t expect the results to be good”.

Then again, one exam won’t end the world.

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 21

forced as in caringly forced i Did consent in the end JDHKSHFKD

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 21

i just got forced into group therapy with a bunch of friends on reddit and it was A Strange Experience for sure

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幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 20

a person wearing headphones laying on a bed with a blue shirt on

ALT: a person wearing headphones laying on a bed with a blue shirt on

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幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 20

when we got home, he kept on asking me to drink water when i felt thirsty and got mad when i postponed doing it. he was also dissatisfied at how unproductive i was being last night but didn’t seem to do much about it but complain. he showed up one last time before i slept and one more time just now

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 20

i do not know why he exists, its harder to talk to him now in the morning but he’s still there. maybe he’s just a figment of my imagination. but he asked me a lot of questions and seemed like he wanted to know more about me, and did not want to be known about on my main.

…i liked talking to him

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 20

there was a person i talked to in my head while out shopping with my family yesterday, and he looked like this:

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 19

You’re not close to me at all but it is a pleasant surprise whenever you interact with me on main or here

That is to say, I don’t hate you

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 18

totally deflated today but i can’t afford to rest 💀

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 17

“i don’t know WHAT you’re doing inside the room staying up so late you should be more attentive” instead of acknowledging he triggered/scared his child for no good reason other than to vent his frustration caused by a problem ENTIRELY UNRELATED TO THEM

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 17

it’s really fun when the day is just going by and then your dad suddenly starts shouting at you to “COME OUT OF THE ROOM RIGHT NOW” and triggers your fight or fight response and then you find out that it’s actually your brothers problem and when you ask him why he shouted at you he continues to say

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 14

yk when my texts start to become as dry as the death valley and im still here and i still make efforts to keep the conversation up, it means I Care and that’s my way of showing i want you to share more because i want you to feel happy and share stuff even while knowing i am losing all interest

/nbh

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 14

…………….im not the best person and it shows

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 14

sooooooo fucking tired…………….. (slept at 4am yesterday) but i complain about it because i can

the fact my mom just yelled at all of us and basically told us to go die isn’t helping 💀 way to take your anger out on your children bro

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 13

i love their designs…

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幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 12

i wanna color this soooo bad but its 3am and i need to wake up tmr gn

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 12

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幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 11

relatable /lh

幻者 🫧 @reliefdystopia.bsky.social · Sep 9

the existential dread that hits you when you realise “oh no. im Excited and theyre Not”: