I deleted tiktok again it had to happen

I want to play my guitar more! I also have gotten into felt beading / embroidery and want to make handmade xmas ornaments/gifts for my friends this year!! Thanks for responding with encouragement and prompting ideas, Lee 💗

Perhaps I’ll take a break again until December 12th

Ahhhhh I was off it for a couple months and didn’t miss it at all but then Taylor announced the life of a show girl and I wanted to keep up with the influx of gaylor performanceartlor content ❤️‍🔥

I need to get off tiktok they are feeding me too many early relationship advice videos that are going to trigger my OCD and lead me to self sabotage… they had me worried I love bombed her by getting a bouquet on the third date

Just saw an edit of Ava and Deborah to Actually Romantic 🙂‍↕️

Also can you believe I got this bouquet for $35 from a local flower shop ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 I literally died dead. Full size bouquets at this place are usually $75… this is just cut short AND IN A PUMPKIN?!?! Obsessed that florist included the top in the arrangement too. We didn’t go out so I justified the cost 🤓

Sending you so much love Angie 💗 I love knowing you on our happy little corner of the internet.

Me: *gets her these flowers for our third date*
Also me: *I hope she knows that I really like her and I hope she likes me back*
Her: *literally invited me over to her apartment for said third date*
Also her: *initiated planning fourth date before the third was over*

I have a fourth date on Wednesday and I am so excited oh my gosh I literally can’t wait to hold her hand and watch her eat her favorite food at her favorite restaurant! I made us a reservation on the later side so that we can go take a walk by the river first if she gets out of work on time

I’m making us a playlist but I am keeping under wraps until I’m actually her boyfriend

Mom I’m scared can you come pick me up please!!! 🧍🏻

Literally just asked if she’d listened to her music before and “yeah she was a client at my old job!”

The two people i have hooked up with this year both worked for orla gartland.. is this just what it means to be gay

Ok so I’ve now been on three dates with the same woman and I like her so much!! For our fourth date we are going to her favorite revolving sushi restaurant. I’m beyond excited! I think she’s the coolest so far. I am so in awe.

Cherry on top of this whole thing is my mom sent this Atlantic article to the family group chat. This morning I asked if she realized how this applied to our current family dynamics and she was like no I was thinking just about society at large 🫩 I am so exhausted.

It’s tough because my mom hates Trump and isn’t even conservative really 😒 she’s just very Christian

Just had a conversation with my mom about how she is homophobic and transphobic because she believes being gay and trans is a sin. She was so incredulous “but phobia implies fear disgust and hatred. I don’t feel or think that.” I go “there is inherent fear, disgust, and hatred in your beliefs.”

Would love to do emdr therapy at some point but for now will settle for the classic phone game 2048

I also had a dream last night that my entire family stopped talking to me because I won’t apologize for the sentiments I communicated and will only apologizing for how I conveyed them.

My mom is like “they’re hurt that you would even accuse them of being anything like that.” First of all I didn’t accuse them of anything, they’re projecting onto me. Second of all, yes I see nothing has changed because once again I am the problem for reacting emotionally to “well intentioned” harm

My mom tried to claim that my reaction to my sisters asking me to take down the private story post about Charlie Kirk was verbal assault 🙃 yes I did indeed swear profanely, but there was no name calling or violent threats?! I was angry, set a boundary firmly, and they decided to stop talking to me 😳

I like my friends cancelled being in red font TAYLOR WHY

YESSSS HELLO THANK YOU

Had a rough conversation with my homophobic mom on Wednesday night… I said it’s hard interacting with her everyday when I know she thinks my existence is a sin and wrong. She said “God loves you Graham!” I shrieked “and God loved Hitler too JESUS CHRIST THE BAR IS SO LOW”