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Sayorain

@sayorain.bsky.social

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I'm Sayo! She/Her Dancer 🔞only Life is a spectrum of emotional colors I want to embrace. I want to live and experience all of what life has to offer in its beautiful and fluttering moments. 🦋🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈 #vrc #vrchat #vrcdancer

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · Oct 17

Hello, I'm Sayo. I'm a dancer in VR Chat.

Just like Twitter, you'll see a mix of VRC content related to dancing and events I partake in, random and sometimes intrusive thoughts, and personal thoughts.

For my friends, hi again. To new folks, pleasure to meet you.

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SushiFerret @sushiferret.bsky.social · 12h

STAR PARTY VOL. 67

THIS THURSDAY

DOORS AT 8:30PM CDT
FIRST SET AT 9:00PM CDT

FEATURING:

@driima.com
@tree.pshq.us
@crunchyjointsvr.bsky.social
@fel77.bsky.social

Group+ instance! Join on friends or through the group!
vrc.group/STRPTY.4082

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · Apr 6

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 15h

had no ill will but willingness to help and see what they can do to help***

Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 15h

This doesn't absolve me of anything. I'm speaking for accountability. I haven't made enough changes to feel satisfied, nor was I open with my thoughts and feelings.

Instead I have no choice but to keep moving forward again. Just as the cycle, I need to keep doing better, with consequences accepted

Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 15h

This is not a justification nor an excuse. What I did was inappropriate. It reminds me of what I did almost 1.5 years ago with The Chateau.

Of course I'm thinking that I didn't learn enough. I feel guilty and ashamed for repeating the same mistakes.

I may be thankful to be let go.

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 15h

Instead of doing better by really stepping back, I forced myself to keep pushing through, despite keeping things suppressed and silent. Instead of accepting that I needed a break, I just forced an obsessive drive to push myself.

In turn, it hurt several people around me. Yes, I lashed out.

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 15h

This weekend I ended up splitting against several individuals from a community that no ill will other than to help support me.

I chose to close myself off because of feelings that I suppressed.

As justified, they had to let me go. I don't have any ill will, it needed to happen.

I'm sorry.

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Foxe @vixenmedia.xyz · 16h

before you go on social media complaining about a world in vrchat, consider the fact that you probably don't a single thing about the amount of work and dedication it takes to build one.

its ungrateful people in this game that kill the drive to create new experiences in this game.

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Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 1d

It's a reflection of my own self. This is the reality within me.

Regardless of what happened last night, I have to face the consequences no matter what.

No matter how much it hurts.

No matter how much I destroyed those paths.

No matter how much remorse I have.

All because of my paranoia.

Sayorain @sayorain.bsky.social · 1d

This paranoia, mixed with guilt and shame, will kill me one day.

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