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what an awful month
November 10, 2025 at 7:44 AM
what an awful month
i have to talk to my therapist that happiness=death so for the past year i havent even uttered that word until today and see where that landed me
November 9, 2025 at 11:30 PM
i have to talk to my therapist that happiness=death so for the past year i havent even uttered that word until today and see where that landed me
instead of kms in december i will reward myself by adding an arm toggle to my model auftrag
November 8, 2025 at 8:43 PM
instead of kms in december i will reward myself by adding an arm toggle to my model auftrag
im so miserably sad all the time
November 5, 2025 at 3:52 PM
im so miserably sad all the time
im on birth control now.
no way its pms time again i just got done with the last one not too long ago
November 4, 2025 at 2:44 PM
im on birth control now.
GRIEF IS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE
November 2, 2025 at 5:34 PM
GRIEF IS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE
i think i let my depression fuck up this apartment and now i dont know where to start cleaning. or how. man im overwhelmed
November 2, 2025 at 4:46 PM
i think i let my depression fuck up this apartment and now i dont know where to start cleaning. or how. man im overwhelmed
no way its pms time again i just got done with the last one not too long ago
November 2, 2025 at 12:16 AM
no way its pms time again i just got done with the last one not too long ago
how do i scream from the rooftops that im doing bad without being an attention seeker. like as a psa. fyi. caution sign. slippery floor
October 29, 2025 at 3:07 PM
how do i scream from the rooftops that im doing bad without being an attention seeker. like as a psa. fyi. caution sign. slippery floor
i think im this artists nightmare client lmao
October 29, 2025 at 3:06 PM
i think im this artists nightmare client lmao
depression stunlocking me from doing anything that i want to do but on the bright side my therapist said i could get disability points
October 29, 2025 at 1:30 PM
depression stunlocking me from doing anything that i want to do but on the bright side my therapist said i could get disability points
the people you guys make famous on the internet is concerning
October 27, 2025 at 4:10 PM
the people you guys make famous on the internet is concerning
they hate meeeeeee
October 23, 2025 at 5:05 PM
they hate meeeeeee
whats it called when you dissociate on purpose and not like spacing out but like "i know im going to go through something horrifically uncomfortable soon but its ok bc i can just dissociate my way through it" like that
October 23, 2025 at 1:34 PM
whats it called when you dissociate on purpose and not like spacing out but like "i know im going to go through something horrifically uncomfortable soon but its ok bc i can just dissociate my way through it" like that
i like to be alone because i literally dont know how to act normal around people 90% of the time i get super anxious and feel left out quickly and become increasingly desperate and the only cure i found so far is to just keep to myself
October 18, 2025 at 2:01 PM
i like to be alone because i literally dont know how to act normal around people 90% of the time i get super anxious and feel left out quickly and become increasingly desperate and the only cure i found so far is to just keep to myself
this closecto developing an ed its crowning. sigh
October 16, 2025 at 8:26 AM
this closecto developing an ed its crowning. sigh
no nuance november in october lest i get publicly stoned but seeing some streamers makes me realize it rlly is 99% luck
October 14, 2025 at 6:47 AM
no nuance november in october lest i get publicly stoned but seeing some streamers makes me realize it rlly is 99% luck
permamuting oomf lmk when they break up with their bf so i can unmute
October 13, 2025 at 3:09 AM
permamuting oomf lmk when they break up with their bf so i can unmute
crying over feeling lonely and left out again yep its time for my period i think
October 12, 2025 at 3:23 PM
crying over feeling lonely and left out again yep its time for my period i think
dont listen to me lm hokng insane from my perios but i miss being skinny..
October 8, 2025 at 10:32 PM
dont listen to me lm hokng insane from my perios but i miss being skinny..
i think... im doing well with this whole streaming thing
October 2, 2025 at 11:14 PM
i think... im doing well with this whole streaming thing
when u post ur writing and literally nobody gaf wow life is beautiful
September 13, 2025 at 9:37 AM
when u post ur writing and literally nobody gaf wow life is beautiful
i dont think i have bpd but i slso dont think im completely right in the head
September 10, 2025 at 10:38 PM
i dont think i have bpd but i slso dont think im completely right in the head
ACK. PLEASEEEEEEE LIKE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LIKE ME PLEASE LIKE MEEEE
September 9, 2025 at 6:37 PM
ACK. PLEASEEEEEEE LIKE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LIKE ME PLEASE LIKE MEEEE