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Eepy Squib
@punksquid.bsky.social
· Sep 3
About me:
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
If this fucking ed makes me puke one more fucking time. I am so SICK of this
November 10, 2025 at 7:38 AM
If this fucking ed makes me puke one more fucking time. I am so SICK of this
Why did you buy me a meal you idiot.
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
November 6, 2025 at 9:13 PM
Why did you buy me a meal you idiot.
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
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locking the fuck in for the 24601 th time of the year 🥖
November 4, 2025 at 9:02 PM
locking the fuck in for the 24601 th time of the year 🥖
November 4, 2025 at 3:18 PM
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does anyone else just fill up half their calories with soda? I know most are afraid of sugar and stuff but I live off this shit and log it into my daily calories lmao #edbsky #hungrycaterpillar
November 2, 2025 at 12:25 AM
does anyone else just fill up half their calories with soda? I know most are afraid of sugar and stuff but I live off this shit and log it into my daily calories lmao #edbsky #hungrycaterpillar
I find it weird that I and others seem to think weight, a person's size is permanent. Fat can be gained or lost relatively quickly multiple times over someone's life. So why do we treat ourselves as failures for a reversible thing?
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 4, 2025 at 1:40 PM
I find it weird that I and others seem to think weight, a person's size is permanent. Fat can be gained or lost relatively quickly multiple times over someone's life. So why do we treat ourselves as failures for a reversible thing?
#edbsky
#edbsky
I am actually too scared of food to eat it I think I fucked up to the point of no return. I always thought I was making the decisions here.
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 3, 2025 at 7:51 PM
I am actually too scared of food to eat it I think I fucked up to the point of no return. I always thought I was making the decisions here.
#edbsky
#edbsky
Orthostatic tachycardia (+45bmp upon standing)
Heart is stressed from a lowered blood volume. Will make an electrolyte drink.
#edbsky
Day 2 of fast
Heart is stressed from a lowered blood volume. Will make an electrolyte drink.
#edbsky
Day 2 of fast
November 3, 2025 at 5:21 PM
Orthostatic tachycardia (+45bmp upon standing)
Heart is stressed from a lowered blood volume. Will make an electrolyte drink.
#edbsky
Day 2 of fast
Heart is stressed from a lowered blood volume. Will make an electrolyte drink.
#edbsky
Day 2 of fast
The window of trauma peeks through several times a day, but it holds no power. You can't hurt me. Don't you know that? Nobody can hurt me, not when my stomach is empty.
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 3, 2025 at 12:43 PM
The window of trauma peeks through several times a day, but it holds no power. You can't hurt me. Don't you know that? Nobody can hurt me, not when my stomach is empty.
#edbsky
#edbsky
I will never forget all the thinge collectively done against or to me in regards to my body and weight. They all will pay, and not a stupid babble of pseudo "concern" will get me to stop because you can't push someone to the edge and act fucking indignant when they fall.
#caterpillarsky
#caterpillarsky
November 3, 2025 at 11:10 AM
I will never forget all the thinge collectively done against or to me in regards to my body and weight. They all will pay, and not a stupid babble of pseudo "concern" will get me to stop because you can't push someone to the edge and act fucking indignant when they fall.
#caterpillarsky
#caterpillarsky
November 3, 2025 at 3:20 AM
Everybody ignores me in my life. It is clear my presence is irrelevant. This disorder is sewn deeply, now.
November 2, 2025 at 9:13 PM
Everybody ignores me in my life. It is clear my presence is irrelevant. This disorder is sewn deeply, now.
November 2, 2025 at 5:25 PM
Is it so sad to stop eating and just disappear. Why am I so comfortable with this. The blanket of smallness covers me. A matter of time... no meds today.
#EDBSKY
#EDBSKY
October 31, 2025 at 1:42 PM
Is it so sad to stop eating and just disappear. Why am I so comfortable with this. The blanket of smallness covers me. A matter of time... no meds today.
#EDBSKY
#EDBSKY
She's shaking, not from the cold or anything but from the coffee she drank with no food. No food will go in anymore today. And her hands are cold, but her shaking is adrenaline. She's so. Cold.
October 30, 2025 at 6:55 PM
She's shaking, not from the cold or anything but from the coffee she drank with no food. No food will go in anymore today. And her hands are cold, but her shaking is adrenaline. She's so. Cold.
October 28, 2025 at 5:48 PM
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I hope I die in my sleep
October 24, 2025 at 12:41 AM
I hope I die in my sleep
As I am less than a month from being in mom's company, my brain and body anticipate her cruelty and thus my appetite is shut off.
#edbsky
#edbsky
October 24, 2025 at 1:47 PM
As I am less than a month from being in mom's company, my brain and body anticipate her cruelty and thus my appetite is shut off.
#edbsky
#edbsky
I wonder if anyone else likes to use up their restriction calories on soda and sugar. Like I'd rather have gnawing hunger knowing I have eaten sugar than be full from protein?
#edbsky
#edbsky
October 21, 2025 at 7:09 PM
I wonder if anyone else likes to use up their restriction calories on soda and sugar. Like I'd rather have gnawing hunger knowing I have eaten sugar than be full from protein?
#edbsky
#edbsky