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Sable ♡ (@S289)
@s289001.bsky.social
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dont mind if i'm a little inactive
very very busy atm
i feel bad for having such a good life. i've gotten better now but i want to get hurt, i dont deserve this.
other people have it so much worse than me. how dare i act this way? i should get a job and help people who have actual problems.
its just
i get panic attacks when i see them, thats bad enough.
no not really. i'm too tired and all the grocery stores are near my old school. dont want any of my old classmates to see me in jirai. 😭
another reason is that i havent been out in jirai for a WHILE.
but that's just because i dont leave my house for more than getting groceries...
but i guess i leave enough to stay somewhat sane.
the reason why i am not active is that i am normal and sane now
i dont even care when ppl are mad at me anymore
is this who you have beef with
i guess that if you spend enough time with any person you'll start to dislike them...
it seems that i can only tolerate people if i'm not around them a lot.
i think i prefer being by myself.
girl please i'm trying so hard
love when i'm trying to stop thinking about the worms inside of me and ALL of my friends and ALL of my family members and ALL of my mutuals decide to talk about worms and repost things relating to them.
i will die.
and i knew that this is how i'll die for a long time.
they say i'm okay but i will die in a few days
i am not in control of my body anymore.
whatever i do i share with them.
i have dreams of my parents welcoming them more than me
i'm so scared i cant stop crying.
i try to sleep but i can only dream about them.
do i have to die to make this stop.
back in my "the government is poisining us and worms live inside of me" arc and idk what that means for me
i cant even say.
i'm in so much pain.
my head hurts but i need to drink
why cant i feel anything but anger towards people
is there something wrong with me
people can find their place
but i could have anything and feel nothing
i wanted to be in a place like this
build meaning bonds with other people in the community
manage to talk to people...
they all seem to feel that way now,
but i dont.
i feel so empty. i feel dead.
i hate it.