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⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Oct 3

If I break up with him, stop talking to all my friends, not register for next semester and get rid of most of my stuff I'm good to go

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Oct 3

Yea idk it just ain't gonna work i think I just need to isolate until there's nothing to hold onto anymore

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Oct 3

Yea so um idk i think it has to happen. I still have the same habits I had at 16 and I low-key don't think I'm gonna change and I'm not happy so idk maybe I should like just end jt fr cus like it'll always be this way

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

At least I'm smart enough to know people don't mean what they say

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

No amount of therapy is gonna uncover why nobody has ever wanted me. It won't erase the fact that I was unwanted from the moment I was conceived to every moment I breathe now

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

Why am I so freaking unwantable

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

Please somebody just go back and erase all the bad and replace it with good so I don't have to feel like this 4n

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

Emotional labour

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

I just want SOMEONE to hear me and say wow that's awful I love you so much and I always will no matter what and I'll support you through this no matter how hard it is because I love u as a person and I want u genuinely... is that so much to ask for??

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

I have passed thr point of needing to talk.I need to just end it

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 28

Anxious attatchment where I get the slightest bit of attention from someone especially a man and I immediately become overwhelmed by the urge for them to be responsible for my emotional wellbeing

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Ya so um it ain't gonna work

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Once again considering isolating from everyone so I have a better reason to kay em ess

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Dont even get me started on tge rrsponse ibget when i try to bring issues up. Little old me has nothing of value to say. The secobd i criticise u its a wrap. It must be right? Cus urcallergic to self reflection. So yea idc

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Responsible for me and u didnt care how i would be affectec so yes fuck u end of story. Let me see the look on your face when the rest of ur children turn on u too.

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

So i dont care. I dont give a flying fuck becausexall not im still an enemy tonu. I truly dgaf. I know for a fact u never did gaf and u nevercwill so why must i?? You cannot make me feel bad about my actions until uve taken a LONG. HARD. lookb at yourself bc U were the parent. U were the one

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Response. Every little move i made would be met with unfair criticism. Just pure judgement and ud make sure i know JUST how much u were DISGUSTED by me!!!! You called me fuckijg DISGUSTING BRO FUCK YOU when i dont do the shit u want me to do how u want me to do it im DISGUSTING

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

U feel you deserve autonomy over dont bend over backwards to do every little thing you want. I AM THE DEVIL INCARNATED. BECAUSE OF THAT. FUUCCKKK YOUUUU. And shit i have done many dumb shit for u before when i was younder and everg time it wohld be met with the most disgustingly rude ans ungrateful

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Its always about how oh im so fucking srlfish and i dont care about anyone else and yada yada. Please for the kove of all things fucking good. Look st yourself. You are not nice people. You are not good people. YOU dont care about anyone but yourself but because i. A person youngervthan you someone

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Marry that horrible disgusting man because I KNOW. that u knew exactly what the fuck u were doing. You just didnt give a SHIT about how WE your fucking children would experience this shitty situation u put us in. And honestly u neverctried to makr it better. We had needs that u never cared to meet.

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Yea u made sure i got food and got to go to school and i had enough clothes to at least not be naked but BRO THATS NOT ALL THERE IS!!!!!!! AND GENUINELY AFTER ALL THESE YEARS i cannot find it within myself to forgive u for seeing tge situation ur in and deciding to add more children to ut and

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

You treated me like DHIT from the beginning and idgaf i will say it right here right now. You have never once cared for what i needed developmentally. U never ONCE cared about my emotions i was akways a fucking burden to you and NEVER did youbstol to think aboutbhow itd affect mr. Never.

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

YOU made it so my brother didnt fucking respect me from the begiinning cus it was always AGAINST ME. I WAS ALWAYS THE FUCKING EVIL CHILD THAT DIDNT DESERVE ANYTHING A L W A Y S. AND WHEN I DID GET SHIT SOMEHOW THAT WAS A FUCKING PROBLEM TOO EVERYTHING IBDO IS A PROBLEM TO U FUCK ASS PEOPKE I HATE U

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Do some shit. And to make matters fuckingbworse my dumbass brotger who is 6bfucking years younger than me always have some buklshit to say and you ENCOURAGE it every fucking time. And i shoukdnt be surprised bc since beforr he could fucking talknit was me against him and who made jt so??? YOU DHMBAS

⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ @soggyuterus.bsky.social · Sep 26

Idk whats so hard to understand about me being upset every time im ordered to do something. Think about itnfor a sec. EVERY SINGLE TIME i come around u u tell me to do something for u bruh every time no matter what the reason i came around is. Cant be in the fucking vicinity of u eithout havjng to