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@anamiacity1.bsky.social
28 • vent account • un-dx'd dissociative system • dx include [definitely not limited to] AuDHD, (C+)PTSD, ED, OCD • gw: too light to enIist • pro-recovery (DNI if you aren't as well)
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y'all we fuckin kiIIed it today. 'twas a rough ass morning but once we were able to Switch and actually start planning the afternoon, shit flew smooth. somehow we got every single thing done, our room has less clutter which means brain has less clutter, and there's one less light on on the car dash.
November 14, 2025 at 11:07 PM
y'all we fuckin kiIIed it today. 'twas a rough ass morning but once we were able to Switch and actually start planning the afternoon, shit flew smooth. somehow we got every single thing done, our room has less clutter which means brain has less clutter, and there's one less light on on the car dash.
not even officially diagnosed cos they can't do that without more "useless" tests insurance won't want to pay for cos they don't see cause even though we have literally every single symptom LMAO
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November 14, 2025 at 5:17 PM
not even officially diagnosed cos they can't do that without more "useless" tests insurance won't want to pay for cos they don't see cause even though we have literally every single symptom LMAO
we took so long to eat ugh don't wanna go to bed might do some scratch art
November 14, 2025 at 3:00 AM
we took so long to eat ugh don't wanna go to bed might do some scratch art
B gonna make garlic bread again and we should prob make salad...def need to hit chiro tomorrow so can't fast cos Driving but this weekend we should be able to get back on track...hopefully 😅
November 13, 2025 at 9:28 PM
B gonna make garlic bread again and we should prob make salad...def need to hit chiro tomorrow so can't fast cos Driving but this weekend we should be able to get back on track...hopefully 😅
there is no water left in my room. time to go refill 2 gallons, 5 G⚡, and 2 miscellaneous bottles lol
November 13, 2025 at 9:10 PM
there is no water left in my room. time to go refill 2 gallons, 5 G⚡, and 2 miscellaneous bottles lol
shivering. my room is a few degrees less than the rest of the house which is fine cos it burns more right hahaha
November 13, 2025 at 9:06 PM
shivering. my room is a few degrees less than the rest of the house which is fine cos it burns more right hahaha
we normally 🍃 smoke with B right after work but he had to go get more 🍃 so we've been pacing in our room cos we don't know how to deal with this routine upset lol hopefully he'll be back soon...hopefully the car doesn't die...(not annoyed/impatient, just hard navigating how my brain deals with this)
November 13, 2025 at 7:57 PM
we normally 🍃 smoke with B right after work but he had to go get more 🍃 so we've been pacing in our room cos we don't know how to deal with this routine upset lol hopefully he'll be back soon...hopefully the car doesn't die...(not annoyed/impatient, just hard navigating how my brain deals with this)
it's actually scaring me the number of times sh has crossed our mind and instead of Brain assuming we won't and asking "wait, should we Actually be doing that?" it's more like "what do we have here to do it with? OH, right, haha, we aren't supposed to be doing that! 😃🙃" 😐 im a lil concerned for us 😅
November 13, 2025 at 7:50 PM
it's actually scaring me the number of times sh has crossed our mind and instead of Brain assuming we won't and asking "wait, should we Actually be doing that?" it's more like "what do we have here to do it with? OH, right, haha, we aren't supposed to be doing that! 😃🙃" 😐 im a lil concerned for us 😅
AHAHAHA what if i just relapse they're opening cans here at home now too hahahahaha we're definitely not thinking anything self destructive def don't want to go unexist in the middle of nowhere ahaahahaa FUUUCK MY LIIIFE
November 13, 2025 at 7:35 PM
AHAHAHA what if i just relapse they're opening cans here at home now too hahahahaha we're definitely not thinking anything self destructive def don't want to go unexist in the middle of nowhere ahaahahaa FUUUCK MY LIIIFE
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the cans won at work today. we left 20 mins early (and we *told* boss, didn't ask, which says a lot) cos heart wouldn't stop pounding like we were sprinting a 5k smh when will we be free of this shit i never wanted to be normal but this is a little TOO special who tf panic sweats just cos cans open?
November 13, 2025 at 7:31 PM
the cans won at work today. we left 20 mins early (and we *told* boss, didn't ask, which says a lot) cos heart wouldn't stop pounding like we were sprinting a 5k smh when will we be free of this shit i never wanted to be normal but this is a little TOO special who tf panic sweats just cos cans open?
AHAHHAAAAHAHA A LITTLE TABLE JUST FELL ON MY ACHILLES AND NOW I'M ON FIRE
November 13, 2025 at 7:27 PM
AHAHHAAAAHAHA A LITTLE TABLE JUST FELL ON MY ACHILLES AND NOW I'M ON FIRE
they keep putting more candy in the break room and it's annoyingly accessible...we couldn't ban milo yesterday but maybe we can today.
November 13, 2025 at 1:10 PM
they keep putting more candy in the break room and it's annoyingly accessible...we couldn't ban milo yesterday but maybe we can today.
apparently we didn't set alarms but sleep was so sparse and broken it didn't fuckin matter. woke up yelling multiple times. eyes tired of the light but the dark made it worse. hating it but here to conquer another day...idk if we're ready for this. neck is still fucked from this week's cans at work.
November 13, 2025 at 1:09 PM
apparently we didn't set alarms but sleep was so sparse and broken it didn't fuckin matter. woke up yelling multiple times. eyes tired of the light but the dark made it worse. hating it but here to conquer another day...idk if we're ready for this. neck is still fucked from this week's cans at work.
we're gonna make abacus now cos that's what normal people do when their trauma body won't let them lay to sleep at 0115 lolol
(to self) no i can't stab u but i can help u make an abacus!! 😜😉 i gotchu we got beads n string it won't be hard Trust Me 😘
November 13, 2025 at 6:15 AM
we're gonna make abacus now cos that's what normal people do when their trauma body won't let them lay to sleep at 0115 lolol
guess it's gonna be one of *those nights*...i wish i could pluck the trauma out of my muscles (and skin and bones)
November 13, 2025 at 6:01 AM
guess it's gonna be one of *those nights*...i wish i could pluck the trauma out of my muscles (and skin and bones)
fuck my ex man i hope he gets the healing he needs (which i realise doesn't sound very aggressive but if he does get better then he might actually see what he did wrong with/to me and the anticipation of him possibly feeling that guilt is...satisfying to say the least)
November 13, 2025 at 5:55 AM
fuck my ex man i hope he gets the healing he needs (which i realise doesn't sound very aggressive but if he does get better then he might actually see what he did wrong with/to me and the anticipation of him possibly feeling that guilt is...satisfying to say the least)
my skin starts crawling like 2 seconds after i lay down. and not in a good way. how TF we gon sleep tonight 😭
November 13, 2025 at 5:52 AM
my skin starts crawling like 2 seconds after i lay down. and not in a good way. how TF we gon sleep tonight 😭
I DON'T WANNA EAT DINNER WHY DID WE SAY YES. right. cos we have to DrIVe To WoRk tomorrow 🤪😡😭
November 12, 2025 at 10:41 PM
I DON'T WANNA EAT DINNER WHY DID WE SAY YES. right. cos we have to DrIVe To WoRk tomorrow 🤪😡😭
B offered garlic bread and we said yes to a slice...low-key hoping he's making salads tonight but if he's not i need to get my butt in there so we can eat at a decent time again. it's been helping, i think, even if only a little, to not eat anything after 2000 (1900 would be ideal but brain dumb so)
November 12, 2025 at 10:38 PM
B offered garlic bread and we said yes to a slice...low-key hoping he's making salads tonight but if he's not i need to get my butt in there so we can eat at a decent time again. it's been helping, i think, even if only a little, to not eat anything after 2000 (1900 would be ideal but brain dumb so)
[can't comment on ¥°u+ub€ cos *reazons* (pun intended 😜) and not that he'll ever see this lol but the OCD is compelling us to say]
@diggygraves.bsky.social
thank you for making such excellent workout music. some tracks we just *can't not* move to, and it makes counting reps much smoother for us 💪😁🖤😌
@diggygraves.bsky.social
thank you for making such excellent workout music. some tracks we just *can't not* move to, and it makes counting reps much smoother for us 💪😁🖤😌
November 12, 2025 at 10:31 PM
[can't comment on ¥°u+ub€ cos *reazons* (pun intended 😜) and not that he'll ever see this lol but the OCD is compelling us to say]
@diggygraves.bsky.social
thank you for making such excellent workout music. some tracks we just *can't not* move to, and it makes counting reps much smoother for us 💪😁🖤😌
@diggygraves.bsky.social
thank you for making such excellent workout music. some tracks we just *can't not* move to, and it makes counting reps much smoother for us 💪😁🖤😌
HOO okay we gonna do PT, maybe exercise with specific music so we don't have to deal with counting reps, prob do omad salad, maybe more of another puzzle we're working on, and def try to sleep. or at least lay down...back hurts cos im pretty sure we were sitting most of last night cos Dark Memories.
November 12, 2025 at 8:26 PM
HOO okay we gonna do PT, maybe exercise with specific music so we don't have to deal with counting reps, prob do omad salad, maybe more of another puzzle we're working on, and def try to sleep. or at least lay down...back hurts cos im pretty sure we were sitting most of last night cos Dark Memories.
the cans were out of control today, and my neck hurts worse than normal from the jerks during flashbacks and the memories engrained in our body. it was hard to breathe...even with the collar. think we even whispered the failed saf€ w°®ds...LH randomly felt like it was asleep...even though it wasn't.
November 12, 2025 at 8:13 PM
the cans were out of control today, and my neck hurts worse than normal from the jerks during flashbacks and the memories engrained in our body. it was hard to breathe...even with the collar. think we even whispered the failed saf€ w°®ds...LH randomly felt like it was asleep...even though it wasn't.
oooh okay so recently we found a vid of northern Iights that they left in reaItime (annoying when people speed it up) so we might loop that on screen instead of show tonight and maybe do the Nocturnal Garden from MyNoise dot net. can't do fire rn but maybe some waves to remind me of nights on beach.
November 12, 2025 at 3:06 AM
oooh okay so recently we found a vid of northern Iights that they left in reaItime (annoying when people speed it up) so we might loop that on screen instead of show tonight and maybe do the Nocturnal Garden from MyNoise dot net. can't do fire rn but maybe some waves to remind me of nights on beach.
i feel like my body just wants to stay at this weight forever and ever amen. it's frustrating as hell
November 12, 2025 at 2:58 AM
i feel like my body just wants to stay at this weight forever and ever amen. it's frustrating as hell