Michael
@armavirumqaecano.bsky.social
Arma virumqae cano
He/him
Things I like:
Plushies (esp blahaj)
Affirmations
Aromatherapy
Immanuel Kant
Romanticism
Power metal
Capybaras
Our flag means death
He/him
Things I like:
Plushies (esp blahaj)
Affirmations
Aromatherapy
Immanuel Kant
Romanticism
Power metal
Capybaras
Our flag means death
I'm at MCM this weekend and I got some stickers that I'm going to gift to the cat girls of my life. Affirming messages on these stickers from a neuro diverse creator. They are so special and heartfelt I'll save these for when I see them next.
October 25, 2025 at 3:34 AM
I'm at MCM this weekend and I got some stickers that I'm going to gift to the cat girls of my life. Affirming messages on these stickers from a neuro diverse creator. They are so special and heartfelt I'll save these for when I see them next.
Sometimes I'm training in the gym longer than I want to or even beyond the set goal I have. I feel I have nowhere else to be and moreover I feel a sense that I'm not allowed to be anyone else.
October 10, 2025 at 1:08 AM
Sometimes I'm training in the gym longer than I want to or even beyond the set goal I have. I feel I have nowhere else to be and moreover I feel a sense that I'm not allowed to be anyone else.
I did lots of healthcare admin today and day job admin. No capacity to do gym today. I'm off to a gig tonight. I wanted to wear the robe outside today but I decided against it mainly because I don't feel allowed to be gender affirmed
October 7, 2025 at 5:50 PM
I did lots of healthcare admin today and day job admin. No capacity to do gym today. I'm off to a gig tonight. I wanted to wear the robe outside today but I decided against it mainly because I don't feel allowed to be gender affirmed
It got overwhelming today and a lot to do. I called the occupational therapist and as part of preparing for psych appt I asked my psychologist to prepare triage information. I have asked her three times to support my MDT and she just says 'lets talk about it'
October 6, 2025 at 11:09 PM
It got overwhelming today and a lot to do. I called the occupational therapist and as part of preparing for psych appt I asked my psychologist to prepare triage information. I have asked her three times to support my MDT and she just says 'lets talk about it'
I miss having my #ofmd Blackbeard beard with the greying but dysphoria is really really difficult for me and I just need to be a different face right now. I miss him a lot the black beard.
October 5, 2025 at 2:40 AM
I miss having my #ofmd Blackbeard beard with the greying but dysphoria is really really difficult for me and I just need to be a different face right now. I miss him a lot the black beard.
Gender dysphoria in a way I never knew before. Part of me desperately wants to be Blackbeard again and grow the beard but another part of me desperately wants a soft and smooth face knowing that it grows too quickly. I want to be the one which isn't so alone
October 1, 2025 at 4:06 PM
Gender dysphoria in a way I never knew before. Part of me desperately wants to be Blackbeard again and grow the beard but another part of me desperately wants a soft and smooth face knowing that it grows too quickly. I want to be the one which isn't so alone
Benzoin (2pt)
Sandalwood (5pt)
Nutmeg (3pt)
Patchouli (6pt)
Myrrh (3pt)
Middle note range of scents, like a library or old books, only touch of sweetness. Some scents associated with sadness, healing. Autumn. Athene
Sandalwood (5pt)
Nutmeg (3pt)
Patchouli (6pt)
Myrrh (3pt)
Middle note range of scents, like a library or old books, only touch of sweetness. Some scents associated with sadness, healing. Autumn. Athene
October 1, 2025 at 4:03 PM
Benzoin (2pt)
Sandalwood (5pt)
Nutmeg (3pt)
Patchouli (6pt)
Myrrh (3pt)
Middle note range of scents, like a library or old books, only touch of sweetness. Some scents associated with sadness, healing. Autumn. Athene
Sandalwood (5pt)
Nutmeg (3pt)
Patchouli (6pt)
Myrrh (3pt)
Middle note range of scents, like a library or old books, only touch of sweetness. Some scents associated with sadness, healing. Autumn. Athene
Perhaps suitable ofmd outfit now I have no beard
September 20, 2025 at 9:00 PM
Perhaps suitable ofmd outfit now I have no beard
I shaved. No longer black bearded. I'm sorry to say. Maybe it will be back but it feels right and right now that I need to be without a beard for a bit. Thanks for understanding. I guess no more aquaman or ed teach stuff
September 20, 2025 at 8:58 PM
I shaved. No longer black bearded. I'm sorry to say. Maybe it will be back but it feels right and right now that I need to be without a beard for a bit. Thanks for understanding. I guess no more aquaman or ed teach stuff
A normal cisgender amount of monster
September 20, 2025 at 8:57 PM
A normal cisgender amount of monster
I dealt with some hoarding yesterday. About 22 items disposed of. Mostly old clothes, mostly pre COVID era. Lots of it feels dysphoric to wear. After therapy I did 3+ hours running and I was quite distressed so I didn't eat much after
September 18, 2025 at 8:06 AM
I dealt with some hoarding yesterday. About 22 items disposed of. Mostly old clothes, mostly pre COVID era. Lots of it feels dysphoric to wear. After therapy I did 3+ hours running and I was quite distressed so I didn't eat much after
1:30am. I'm trying to do some admin to be on top of my therapy sessions. But as part of preparing for the process I have some digital hoarding tasks. There's lots of things I haven't clocked into my workflow since mid July. I'm doing all this on a 2000kcal calorie deficit
September 15, 2025 at 12:35 AM
1:30am. I'm trying to do some admin to be on top of my therapy sessions. But as part of preparing for the process I have some digital hoarding tasks. There's lots of things I haven't clocked into my workflow since mid July. I'm doing all this on a 2000kcal calorie deficit
Dawn appeared (0632 approx)
September 12, 2025 at 10:16 AM
Dawn appeared (0632 approx)
I adore this pic I was at the beach last week and my special friend took this photo I was joking a bit (but not really) that the southwest of England is Blackbeard territory
September 2, 2025 at 8:38 AM
I adore this pic I was at the beach last week and my special friend took this photo I was joking a bit (but not really) that the southwest of England is Blackbeard territory
I am going out of town Thursday and anxious about not training so I did extra to compensate for the absent day.
August 28, 2025 at 2:13 AM
I am going out of town Thursday and anxious about not training so I did extra to compensate for the absent day.
I am back to wearing the plate carrier today. Will I wear it tomorrow? It feels like summer is over. With if the rituals of the warm days, including not wearing a tactical vest. I grieve for the summer that could have been, the life that should be fulfilled.
August 24, 2025 at 2:02 AM
I am back to wearing the plate carrier today. Will I wear it tomorrow? It feels like summer is over. With if the rituals of the warm days, including not wearing a tactical vest. I grieve for the summer that could have been, the life that should be fulfilled.
I am feeling really disoriented today I think I pushed it harder than I'm mentally used to. I don't really recognise myself ATM
August 20, 2025 at 12:28 PM
I am feeling really disoriented today I think I pushed it harder than I'm mentally used to. I don't really recognise myself ATM
Blackbeard? More like greying beard
August 17, 2025 at 12:41 AM
Blackbeard? More like greying beard
Going to a gig will make me forget about my bottom dysphoria. Balls to the wall plays during set up
August 3, 2025 at 7:15 PM
Going to a gig will make me forget about my bottom dysphoria. Balls to the wall plays during set up
Two versions of me. The awkward stage before long hair me, awkward in all the nerdy and non sociable ways. The other me in present, I'm a lot fitter but older too. I am feeling a lot of dizziness and struggling with everyday stuff. Am I still the nerdy one? I'm definitely very dizzy ...
July 31, 2025 at 6:02 AM
Two versions of me. The awkward stage before long hair me, awkward in all the nerdy and non sociable ways. The other me in present, I'm a lot fitter but older too. I am feeling a lot of dizziness and struggling with everyday stuff. Am I still the nerdy one? I'm definitely very dizzy ...
Tuesday (yesterday) my outfit. I felt some rejection emotions which felt difficult and quite isolated.
July 23, 2025 at 3:38 AM
Tuesday (yesterday) my outfit. I felt some rejection emotions which felt difficult and quite isolated.
The world as she sees it. The most fleeting moment in which I am her and then it fades and all beauty is gone
July 22, 2025 at 1:17 AM
The world as she sees it. The most fleeting moment in which I am her and then it fades and all beauty is gone
Today's blend is
5pt Orange. For the little sister I will miss
4pt Marjoram. The throes of grief
4pt Sandalwood. The love that needs more attention
2pt Myrrh. To complement Orange. Once I was young and hopeful like her
4pt Bergamot. Of being open to hope but vulnerable to hurt
5pt Orange. For the little sister I will miss
4pt Marjoram. The throes of grief
4pt Sandalwood. The love that needs more attention
2pt Myrrh. To complement Orange. Once I was young and hopeful like her
4pt Bergamot. Of being open to hope but vulnerable to hurt
July 21, 2025 at 12:56 PM
Today's blend is
5pt Orange. For the little sister I will miss
4pt Marjoram. The throes of grief
4pt Sandalwood. The love that needs more attention
2pt Myrrh. To complement Orange. Once I was young and hopeful like her
4pt Bergamot. Of being open to hope but vulnerable to hurt
5pt Orange. For the little sister I will miss
4pt Marjoram. The throes of grief
4pt Sandalwood. The love that needs more attention
2pt Myrrh. To complement Orange. Once I was young and hopeful like her
4pt Bergamot. Of being open to hope but vulnerable to hurt