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Account for posting lewds and any shamelessly horny yearning stuff, the scraps from main basically. Main is @phobia.bsky.social

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

That is very sweet, ty! 👊

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

love to hear that tyyy

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

Hope you find a sculpted woman soon 🧡

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

I have gotten that comment on a few pieces lol

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

yay tyyy 🧡🔥

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

You are the sweetest 🧡🖤🧡

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14h

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · Jul 5

A hookup, but you come over and I run my tongues over every inch of you

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 1d

Thoughts on sculpting

Drawing of a woman carving another woman out of stone, the sculpted woman is holding the carver

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

The shapes metaphor is in my mind lately because I can tell when I really cram myself into the shape people expect and want when they look at me then there is so much more enthusiasm. I think I just always expected more understanding from people also radically taking ownership of their identity.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

Think the transition feels are really stacking up lately because I just keep running into people making so many assumptions off of an appearance i can't really control. They think I'm a stone top or call me masc or say a pic of me in a dress looks like drag or just a million other things.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

Appreciate that, I think for all my ranting here my art probably says it better than I ever do

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

🧡🐰 mood too big, could be a lil smaller

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

I don't want to scramble and scrape forever. I would like to rest and build and appreciate and have community and engage in being the weird shape that takes the world and others into its million uneven but loving facets.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

Every level of life is just so unstable and takes so much out of you to live with. From personal feelings of dysphoria to the world collapsing in on us. And hell, all that said I feel like I'm dealing with it. But just enough to do this scramble forever. I don't know, there has to be more.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

And this body got put through a lot before I transitioned. If the dysphoria wasn't enough there are multiple chronic pains that just make day to day an effort. You have to justify that effort every day, somehow. Then expand that to every level of our lives right now.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

Lesser stress than pre transition but hrt didn't have as much as an impact as it did for many of those around me. My brain will just never shut up about it, even if mentally I'm past caring about it. But that is hard to explain, or even bringing up the struggle pushes away people in my experience

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

An example lately, I both like how I look and love myself dearly and also struggle with this body every second. There is no too late for transition but I was likely too late for the things that would quiet my brain. So it's struggling with this thought that this is just forever now.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

I think we as a wider community still struggle with shapes though. I see it constantly here or in person. The world certainly is struggling, obv. There feels like no where for weird shapes to rest.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

So do you transition, really open up the complexity in an undeniable and visible (esp for those like me) way just to then smash yourself back into palatable shapes. Naive optimism and a closeted life reading queer media made me so excited join a sea of complexity.

Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 5d

I never how to reconcile or communicate the complicated structure of this feeling. It seems like simple shapes work better, for the world and people. But I don't think anyone is a simple shape and it's just how much will you contort yourself into one.