I love them too, dude 🥹

The pain was so intense, as if he had been struck with a sledgehammer and doused in acid. A hellish burning and tightness that spread to his jaw and chest.

Everything goes black. And the pain remains present through it all.

He can't cry or scream or talk. He just holds his chest. He clutches his fingers so tightly that he scratches his skin even though he's wearing his shirt.

His mind was completely blank. Nothing remained in his mind. Not even the cries of the cowboys who followed him or the smell of antiseptic.

Reality hits him like a chair to the face when he sees the body lying on the table, and he falls to his knees, clutching his chest.

-,His brain was doing everything it could to comprehend anything other than “Rodolfo is dead”.

His ears ringing and the color draining from his skin, his body headed for the medical area. To the morgue.

He doesn't fully process it when the veteran says, “He's dead”. Not even when he repeats, “Rodolfo se nos fué”

He stopped feeling his body as such and stood motionless, trying to understand what was happening-

Alejandro is in his office looking for something; he doesn't remember much beyond one of the veteran cowboy standing in the doorway, crying as he holds and twists a piece of bloodstained cloth in his hands.

Alejandro just looks at him in confusion, wondering what has happened to him to be like that

Everyone thought he was busy running around. Even Alejandro.

Almost two hours pass before Alejandro finds out about it, and he almost has a heart attack on the spot

It's a vaquero who finds him. A rookie who didn't see it as a tragedy. He was just another casualty.

They collect his body, and given the chaos of the mission, no one notices his absence because of the amount of work...

...Due to the other shots around him, no one notices, and he ends up bleeding out so quickly that he just lies still in the darkness. The last thought he has is that he hopes Alejandro isn't the one who finds his body.

And in fact, he doesn't.

NOT THE PINE OF SHAME

Alejandro fighting demons and the demons are that he longs to look at Rudy's profile at dawn and dusk as if he was the most beautiful thing in the world, (he is)