Stuff happens, don't beat yourself up!

I love this time of year because as the world becomes darker, in an emotionally dark time, I can stare into the darkness or I can look for the pin points of light all around me.

edhrec.com/deckpreview/...

Sure! The first is: edhrec.com/deckpreview/... which I got because I love toph, and then my Brother in law suggested taht it might be easier to play one with Toph the hardheaded teacher instead, so I found one that had a few overlapping cards, so I wouldn't spend TOO much on them...

Also I feel this meme crazy amounts:

Also today I was waiting for a code approval and I felt Leela's rage in this clip in my soul:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdX2...

Today I called into a meeting instead of attending. Totally a thing that people can and should do, when they need to.

and I don't feel bad about it. Legitimately. It's ok to take care of you when you need to. That's the biggest thing I am learning.

It reminds me that I need to go slow.
it reminds me that I need to ask for help.
it reminds me that it's ok to ask for accomodations.
It reminds me that there's no shame in leaning on others.
I have a bucket of baggage that makes me think otherwise, but it's ok to slow down and do things

He did some amazing things with his five years. <3 I wish It could have been so many more.

It can be 100% useful as a patient to know 'Hey don't do that, it'll damage your body' sure. But if you see me doing it twice, don't assume I just think I know better. I legit could not fix it.... and now I'm broken af.

"Hey yeah I can't flatten my foot right in this boot and I'm not sure why. so I have just been wearing it like this because it's the best I can do." Then we could work to a solution. Shame, or scolding, whatever, is often not the solution to fixing things. Curiousity leads to solutions

She's absolutely right, it won't, and it didn't, and it's a pain. BUT if she had (instead) asked "I noticed you aren't flattening your foot in the boot. is there a reason for that? It really needs to be flat to heal right." It would open an opportunity for me to say

In case you want to listen too: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gcic...

This is full on a "NOBODY CARES" moment.

(I wish I knew why I was like this and could make active moves to get better. I don't want to be like this. )

BUT IT FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELS LIKE IT.

so I am going to do some yoga and listen to Chris Hemsworth tell me not to panic (this is a real thing) and hope that I can pull my shit together to actually get something done.