Six months ago, my upper back was squeezed at a curved point of the spine and I decided to hang from the bed upside down to pull the muscles.

Still not fully recovered 😂👍

omg that sucks 😭 protecc your mangos! ><

Wait what! 😡😡😡
🤗😭

Finding normal basic colors was difficult, but now I'm not going to poke around like a blind kitten, probably.

oooh, more rae's merch to the world yeaaah!!! 🔥🔥🔥
also glad I'm not the only one who's egosearching LOL

I wrote 40k words without writing at all before. This is a plus. The minus is that the last two chapters, in fact, came out within six months lol
I'M SO SORRY

thank you ☺️
You can handle everything beautifully too, give yourself more time! 💙✨

Thank you 💙
You're really a good person, and it really matters. Creative people, however, often suffer with being enough. But emotional communication and the fact that you are in this world are very important in themselves. I am also sending you a reminder of this. ✨

Yes, meeting your needs seems to be the first and important step. If you are able to do this, you can already do whatever you want, because life is yours. I have problems with this, because I essentially erased my social and legal life and started from scratch, and in the worst conditions.

Or perhaps it is a belief in a terrible world. Like, the opposite of faith in a just world lol
I always think that everyone around me wants to devour and destroy me, especially people older than my age+10. So I've been living in survival mode for the last 10 years. Which is quite... exhausting.

My psychotherapist thinks this might be linked to a time in my life when I was under two years old and was forced to do painful physical exercises over and over.

The problem is that I consider myself worse than others by default, and I even have proof of that. Like, “I have a disability, which means I have to work x4 harder than healthy people,” and not the other way around. Is that pride or what?

And I don't apply this model to others and actually know what compassion is, lol.