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in my heated rivalry brainrot era
i like angst, eddie diaz, and ilya rozanov
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it’s so cold and for what….. if it’s gonna be this cold it might as well snow!!! just give it to me!!
it’s 27 degrees fahrenheit, but feels like 15
December 8, 2025 at 8:37 PM
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i like sports dramas and if they have sex, so be it!!
post from twitter user @ummrys: me telling people i watch heated rivalry for the plot and the worst part is i actually mean it
December 6, 2025 at 11:50 PM
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once upon a time this was similar to an original project i was working on…. maybe this is a sign to revisit it…....
movie star blind date tea are you flirting with me?
December 4, 2025 at 3:56 AM
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this thread was the first thing i did this morning and i can’t believe i didn’t post the best one
my top albums 1. debi tirar mas fotos - bad bunny 2. the outsiders obc 3. the warriors 4. cowboy carter - beyonce 5. up all night - one direction
December 4, 2025 at 1:08 AM
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me patiently waiting for more
image of a girl in bed, curled up in a fuzzy blanket, looking at her laptop
December 3, 2025 at 11:24 PM
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only one person voted so @kanervas.bsky.social this is for you ❤️ happy wip wednesday xoxo
an excerpt from a hollanov wip. There’s a ringing in Shane’s ears. He’s not stupid. He’s a little slow on the uptake sometimes, he can admit, but Shane knows hockey, knows that hockey is a full contact sport. A collision sport. He knows about the career-ending injuries he needs to watch out for. He’s aware of the concussion protocol, the questions they ask. Yes, his head hurts. It pounds. Aches. There’s mounting pressure between his temples and it’s getting worse by the second. No, he’s not nauseous right this second, but he might be on anti-nausea meds, maybe, he doesn’t know. Yes, he’s sensitive to light. He’s dizzy. He’s lightheaded. If asked, he can tell you what year he thinks it is, but with every passing second, he’s a little less sure. “Hey, mom,” he says, and—oh, hey, there’s that nausea. He swallows it down. “I think there’s something wrong.” **** It’s a bit bewildering, losing nine years. His mother had gentled her voice and tried to fill in the gaps. He made it, he’s a hockey player. The number 2 draft pick of his season. He’s an Olympian. An All-Star. A captain. He still is all those things; they haven’t been taken from him, not for good. He can still play, technically, once his body heals. He just—doesn’t remember his teammates. Doesn’t remember playing with them, or against them. Doesn’t know who his friends are, or who he doesn’t get along with. He’ll have to relearn strategies and relationships and player weakness, but if that’s the worst of it—he’ll be okay. He thinks. He hopes. It’s overwhelming, is what it is, but he’s trying not to freak out. It’s fine. He’s breathing through it. The last thing he remembers is being on the ice. He was on the ice, and Rozanov was there. He was chasing him for the puck, and they were flying, almost. He was on the ice, and he was about to make his move, and Rozanov was— Rozanov is standing in the doorway of his hospital room, silhouetted and back-lit by the bright hallway.
December 3, 2025 at 6:57 PM
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oh the actual playlist they make lists how many times you’ve played a song!
also lmao @ bb being my top 8 and then here comes the outsiders to round out my top 10.
a spotify playlist for my top songs of 2025 - next to the songs are a # of times it was played
December 3, 2025 at 2:46 PM
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i lowk hate when broadway artists are listed separately…. 3 is a part of 5 and should not have counted individually…. anyway.
top 5 spotify wrapped artists 1. bad bunny 2. beyonce 3. brody grant 4. the band light 5. the outsiders broadway cast
December 3, 2025 at 2:39 PM
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at the end of the day i’m just a boricua
my spotify wrapped top 5 songs. 1. BAILE INoLVIDABLE 2. NUEVAYoL 3. LO QUE LE PASO A HAWAii 4. LA MuDANZA 5. CAFe CON RON
December 3, 2025 at 2:39 PM
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not to out myself as a capricorn on main but i loooove stats
Bubble chart visualization showing accounts you interacted with, sized by total interactions across all engagement types in 2025. Top interacted accounts: @zprince.bsky.social, @doomaglow.bsky.social, @beckels.bsky.social, @cherishingstydia.bsky.social, @omeletdreamer.bsky.social (from Anisota's Annual Bluesky Harvest) Year highlights for 2025: Unique accounts engaged with: 622; Words posted: 47,318; Average daily posting rate: 7.2; "people don't want to work with us - why is that?" ashley, t...: 81 likes; Different emojis used: 107; Links shared in posts: 101; Peak posting hour: 7pm; Day with most posts: Friday; Likes, replies, reposts & quotes received: 10,302; Posts created this year: 2,749 (from Anisota's Annual Bluesky Harvest) Word cloud visualization for 2025 showing your 50 most-used words, sized by frequency. Top 10: "eddie" (125×), "buck" (110×), "bb27" (96×), "episode" (76×), "happy" (73×), "write" (64×), "friends" (56×), "watch" (56×), "hope" (54×), "show" (51×) (from Anisota's Annual Bluesky Harvest) Emoji bubble chart for 2025 showing 50 different emojis used 893 times total, visualized as bubbles sized by frequency. Top 10: ❤ (141×), 😭 (113×), 🫶🏽 (96×), 🥲 (34×), 👀 (32×), ✨ (31×), 🤞🏽 (31×), 🥰 (29×), 🧍🏽‍♀ (27×), 🎉 (26×) (from Anisota's Annual Bluesky Harvest)
December 3, 2025 at 3:42 AM
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i'm afraid it is that serious
an open sketchbook. the pages are filled with handwritten notes. some are highlighted yellow, pink, and green.
December 3, 2025 at 3:26 AM
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i promise to write as fast as i can manage! i’m at 2k!!
a cheeky little snippet. there are 2,171 words on the document. behind that, a few words are visible, reading: towards the door “I should go.” “Wait!” Shane sa we friends?” he something, right? “No, Hollander.” “But you came h “League send me “Oh.” The sting Maybe Rozanov made him out to Still. He hesitates afterthought, he you on the ice soo And then he’s go Ilya Rozanov wo not run from the He walks out on not quake. They into the sun, and chest. He breathe about Shane’s da them. Cliff Marlow is “How is he?”
December 2, 2025 at 4:12 AM
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how it started vs how it’s going
a tweet that says: hr spoilers / / / so where's the fic where the concussion shane gets in ch21 leaves him w amnesia and he doesn't remember the last few years w ilya and all he has is everyone telling him about their rivalry and his text chain with Lily. bc i need that bad. pre-cottage. pre-coming out. pre-feelings confessions. what does ilya *do* with himself. a screenshot of a heated rivalry fanfic work in progress. it reads: Rozanov nods once. "I was looking forward to last night," he says, soft. His pinky finger touches the back of Shane's hand, just barely, feather light, as if Shane was something fragile. "To what, beating me?" he says, and it sounds wrong to his own ears, but he can't put his finger on why. His pulse races under his skin. "Yes." "Asshole." The word rolls off his lips easily. There are a lot of questions on the tips of his tongue, bubbling in his chest, and they nearly spill over when Rozanov meets Shane's eyes, something like humor dancing behind them. Something is—off, that has nothing to do with the floaty feeling of the painkillers in his system. Rozanov is looking at him, and his gaze is weighted, pinning him in place. There are bags under his eyes and his pinky is hooked onto Shane's and there's something at the edge of Shane's consciousness, like chasing a dream, that's telling him he's missing something, he's supposed to remember something— "I'm sorry," Shane stammers out. "Did we have plans or something scheduled for last night? I'm having some trouble remembering." Rozanov freezes. "…..you have a concussion." He doesn't phrase it like a question, but Shane answers it all the same. "Yeah." "You don't remember me." "Should I?" Shane laughs awkwardly. Rozanov's face remains carefully blank. "I'm sure we had our moments throughout the years of playing together, but-are we friends?" There was no evidence that they were. His mom had said they weren't. When Shane looked through his phone against doctors orders he hadn't seen Rozanov in his contacts. Shane had even googled the two of them, and the only photos that came up were from award nights and professional photo shoots. Nothing casual. Nothing to suggest they ever hung out outside of the ice. "How long?" Rozanov asks. "How long what?" "What is the last thing you remember?" If his arm weren't in a sling, he'd shrug. "I don't know," he lies. Rozanov's eyes narrow, and Shane's tongue unsticks itself to answer truthfully. "We met at the World Junior Hockey Championships. Your team beat the shit out of mine." Rozanov finally takes his hand back, and there's no reason why Shane feels bereft at the loss, but something in him quiets anyway. "That was eleven years ago," Rozanov says. His voice has gone gruff, his accent thickening as he swallowed his vowels. Shane couldn't even begin to understand what that meant, so he doesn't try. "Feels like yesterday."
December 1, 2025 at 6:28 AM
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an "i—oh, wait," meme
December 1, 2025 at 5:33 AM
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final graphs bc i love to look at em
two line graphs plotting my progress. the first one is my daily work, where the goal was at least 1,667 words a day. my line is very squiggly, sometimes below goal, sometimes way above. the second line graph is of the total progress made. in the end, i ended up with a draft that's 50,147 words long (out of an original goal of 50k)
December 1, 2025 at 5:07 AM
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i’m seated. the ao3 employees are scared and asking me to leave because it’s “not written yet” but i’m simply too seated
November 30, 2025 at 11:21 PM
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that cancelled show you never stop thinking about.....
a poster for Julie and the Phantoms
November 30, 2025 at 10:06 PM
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nov 27
+3,636 / 45,064 total

i WILL be making these lines touch istg
a line graph with my overall progress so far. a dark blue line is the goal, and a green line is my actual progress. as of november 28th, i'm at 45,064 out of 50,000 words with 2 days to go
November 29, 2025 at 8:23 AM
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it was ilya’s idea to do the commercial together
idr if that detail is in the book but i am sooo
a still from 9-1-1 that says caller: AAAAAAH!
November 28, 2025 at 5:20 AM
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my friends host a fantasy-football style league for movie awards season and this is my team's draft
Best Picture - Wicked: For Good Director - Paul Thomas Anderson, One Battle After Another Actor - Wagner Moura, The Secret Agent Actress - Amanda Seyfried, The Testament of Ann Lee Supp Actor - Jacob Elordi, Frankenstein Supp Actress - Ariana Grande, Wicked: For Good & Elle Fanning, Sentimental Value Original Screenplay - Is This Thing On? Adapted Screenplay - No Other Choice Cinematography - Testament of Ann Lee Editing - Bugonia Original Score - F1 Animated Feature - Scarlet Catch-All - Marty Supreme
November 24, 2025 at 1:37 AM
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i am giving in to peer pressure
the cover for heated rivalry by rachel reid
November 23, 2025 at 11:34 PM
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actors got me flowers for opening 🥹
i am holding a single red rose, and a small bouquet of red, pink, and orange carnations with white babys breath.
November 22, 2025 at 2:47 AM
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happy first day of tech
spongebob crash out meme (chuckles) i’m in danger meme meet the rombinson’s goob staring with bags under his eyes spongebob in silent hill meme
November 19, 2025 at 2:46 PM
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the game is good and exciting and dramatic obvs but i'm also having fun wheres-waldo-ing myself in the background lol
a zoomed-in blurry photo of someone with split-dyed hair in a pink jumpsuit.
November 13, 2025 at 6:49 PM
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nov 10
+1,712 / 11,862 total
it's day 10, have a snippet to celebrate
He looked at me for a beat and then handed them over. I took a glance at the first page. [title] was bolded at the top. I felt myself grin. “Well, Mr. Ullman, I think you can call yourself a playwright.” If he were alive for it, I think he would’ve blushed. He ducked his head as his lips turned up involuntarily. “Don’t get too ahead of yourself, now.” “I mean it,” I said, waving the pages towards him. “You wrote a play.” “I haven’t written the ending.” “But you will,” I promised. He smiled, shy and small. “Yeah, I will.”
November 11, 2025 at 7:18 AM