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𝐼𝑠𝑎𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑒🎻
@elegantchaos.scares.men
Player and fervent admirer of the violin. Heart made of music. Also a huge Hololive fan (fox❤️), psychology nerd and I’m addicted to plushies. EN/JP(~N2).

AuDHD, NPD, ASPD traumatized bitch.
Trans girl, anarchist, devoted feminist. Occasional nsfw. she/her
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this stuff reminds me of my first big special interest(that i know of), which was weather

everyone thought i was gonna be a meteorologist or smth, vaguely remember watching the sky and pointing out different types of clouds

still crops up from time to time
November 12, 2025 at 1:27 PM
shit like auroras really makes u realize why so many civilizations just decided everything was made by a god bc you look at that and it feels straight out of a fantasy world

news saying they’ll probably show again tonight too
November 12, 2025 at 1:09 PM
this is the coolest fucking thing ive seen in my life
November 12, 2025 at 3:31 AM
November 12, 2025 at 3:17 AM
i cant believe that just happened im shaking a bit
November 12, 2025 at 3:03 AM
THERES AN AURORA HERE OMFG THAT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE

ive never seen them before!!!!
November 12, 2025 at 2:45 AM
playing happy music feels so weird to me

when i do my little improvs to work on tone or whatever i always end up playing something that sounds like a funeral elegy
November 12, 2025 at 2:22 AM
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My political hot take is that US voters should be able to recall elected representatives via petition - at any time.
No more hiding behind election terms.
November 11, 2025 at 1:05 PM
I can only make very faint impressions of images in my head
November 11, 2025 at 11:51 PM
ave mujica

sakiko
when the story hits you so hard it feels like the author broke into your mind and stole your thoughts
November 11, 2025 at 11:30 PM
Constantly experiencing this as a child resulted in my default response being defiance and strengthening those things people didn’t like

Because if you don’t like it even when i try to do things your way, then fuck you ill make my own path
I think about this a lot.
November 11, 2025 at 11:01 PM
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Tranny Series by Trance Highlights. 1
November 11, 2025 at 5:00 PM
god i love sibelius how does it get better every time
November 11, 2025 at 5:03 PM
really interesting piece bc it has big waltz vibes but is surprisingly in 4/4 (waltzes are typically in 3/4 or 6/8) but there are a lot of triplets, which with the way i interpret it, are being utilized to create a waltz-ish sound but with a bit more space to fill per measure

very clever
November 11, 2025 at 3:42 PM
so many famous violin concertos would make for amazing boss music

I hear Mendelsshon and think of like, a long graceful swordfight against the eccentric taunting ghost of an insane king in a big epic hall kinda like pontiff sulyvhan from ds3
November 11, 2025 at 3:32 PM
they need to invent a mental illness off button for when u need to work

or in a humane society, have time to process your shit without losing your job

so fuckin depressed just wanna play violin all day cause its the one thing that always improves my mood
November 11, 2025 at 3:04 PM
please do not trust chatgpt😭
November 11, 2025 at 2:26 PM
its kinda wild how 2 years after learning im autistic im still discovering more things i do that i didn’t realize were from the ‘Tism
November 11, 2025 at 1:49 PM
love how the capybara just doesn’t give a fuck
November 11, 2025 at 11:37 AM
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ㅇㅅㅇ
November 11, 2025 at 11:10 AM
*glass shattering noises* never tried this high before bc its considered more advanced (and it is hard af) than the rest

afaik the only other instrument that goes this high is the piano
November 11, 2025 at 2:04 AM
i hate people
November 10, 2025 at 10:50 PM
idk if its like an autism thing or smth (like a stim) but whenever im doing something that requires a lot of focus i automatically narrate my thoughts out loud without really thinking about it

so my parents involuntarily get a speech on violin technique whenever i practice
November 10, 2025 at 9:52 PM
i watch this pretty much daily atp

youtu.be/PO8bZx9qRew
Our C̶A̶T̶ W̶I̶F̶E̶ FOX FRIEND Fubuki Sings JAPANESE GOBLIN AGAIN In 2025!! | Hololive Clip
YouTube video by NekoNation Ch. 【Hololive Clips】
youtu.be
November 10, 2025 at 7:11 PM