And on day 7 I broke 50 minutes. Down 13 minutes in a week. Not too shabby. Still slow as fuck but I'm telling myself to be patient. I hate being patient. It's my least favorite activity other than running.

we live right off a country highway and it claims so many lives, wildlife and cats/dogs. it's why i am so fanatic about TNRing, otherwise right outside my front lawn is decorated with dead kittens... it's traumatic honestly

That can definitely contribute but a ton of people I know like myself just don't understand the appeal.

the ferals die by the dozen out on the road out here, once they're inside they stay inside or i find them squished :/

i've got two feral to lap cats <3 and I've adopted out a few more <3

what kind of picky? pick something they like and go one step adjacent, find something they like that's adjacent, then one step away from that

little steps and often!

sometimes the boulder can feel lighter....

oh i just mean my muscles tone super crazy fast and i can make quick gains and also cut my 5k times pretty drastically within a short period of time. The depression is not a switch i can flip, that is a boulder up a hill except there is no top of the hill, i just keep pushing until i'm dead.

ah yeah, folks who had a lot of muscle tone in the past can regain it way faster than folks who are starting working out later on in life. muscle memory is wild shit - thanks, i think i'm just gonna rage til i feel better lolol #health

Were you an athlete or just a really active person? I used to do kickboxing, crew, gymnastics, etc. When I have the motivation and mental health to do it, i can flip a switch and become really fit. but depression is a bitch. i think im literally dogfighting my way out of depression right now.

A progression of 5ks in 5 days. Time dropped from 63 minutes to 52 minutes... back when i was in shape my average was around half an hour. not super speedy... but i am moving at a snail's pace by comparison - but there's decent progression

........day 4