Of course the Fae are open source. That's why as soon as you give a computer your name someone steals it.

In conclusion, this is why we can't have nice things…

I was going to volunteer for one of their other projects involving EMTs dealing with language barriers with immigrants…but then I was triggered by the project Helping cops and had to leave

‪I mean my grad school was no bastion of progressiveness but they did teach me to think about stakeholders for a project in a very EXPANSIVE manner and for public project actually think about the actual public as an important stakeholder‬

This is not the entire reason why so many engineers suck at this but engineering and design schools really need to teach CODESIGN principles rather than treating the people most impacted as some of the least important stakeholders

‪The answer was that they were interested but had been able to connect with those people but they kept mentioning connect connecting with folks impacted through the GOVT agencies/nonprofits not actually through grassroots or etc. Or Direct outreach‬

I mean the main thing I asked them after their orientation for new folks was whether their projects which covered all sorts of stuff including education housing etc. actually worked with the most important stakeholders the people supposedly being served/Impacted rather than just GOVT/Nonprofits

‪There are many reasons why this kind of shit happens…but one of the big ones is that these types of projects defined there main stakeholders as the users of their tools and not the people being impacted…this is not just terrible political behaviour but also terrible engineering‬

TW trauma
Every single moment of life is a traumatic experience these days… Because one has to constantly worry about potential reactions to literally anything which could then put me on a word spiral again or a result in anaphylaxis

TW trauma
And in the meantime I'm reading all these PTSD/Trauma self-help books in the absence of therapy and all of them try to convince people that they're actually safe now… Except my illness means that I'll never be safe

All the choices left to me or bad choices when it comes to MCAS a medical model and a social model sense

TW food
I've spent a lot of my spoons over the last month dealing with insurance stuff and trying to figure out how to pay for caregiving when I feel like I should've been paying more attention to making sure I had enough to eat… I don't know…

TW food
I don't know how I'm supposed to problem solved while starving. And saying that seems somehow off because I am so damn privileged to even have had food all this time and been able to stock PILE

I also don't have other Therapist right now BC trying to find a NONCARCERAL practice that actually takes Medicare and doesn't have a BLEIST policies is basically impossible

TW food
And dealing with having to find alternatives too other things I use daily which are no longer available for various reasons and my MCAS means I react to everything.

TW food
I don't have the emotional bandwidth left to deal with this if anymore and constantly problem solved Crisis
All is well dealing with not being able to access necessary telehealth services because Medicare isn't covering the mini more

TW food
It'll come back in season in March/April. I was making good progress finally getting enough calories in for the last couple months and building some muscle and starting to do PT etc. And now I'm afraid I'm going to starve for the next three months. And back slide

Here is the link to my fundraiser:
launchgood.com/empowerzahra

And to be clear these would be folks who do engage in social activities with other folks and not just folks who don't in general halftime to be social