I'm feeling very Hungary from this information... 👀

"eternal European pain" sounds like some sick Sci-Fi pseudoscientific phenomenon, or just the general summary of it's current state in our world.

Welcome back to the mythical site that everybody knows yet nobody can remember.

all this talent and I'm still probably gonna die poor😞

Life is so unfair...

I did SO MUCH writing in fact that i 𝘂𝗻𝗶𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵 𝗴𝗼𝗱 & 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗳 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 trough theory and philosophy.

"Stop philosophizing"
-Parents

Funny enough I already do that, I write 6-9 pages of paragraphs each day at college minimum. And already did some writing as a hobby by typing a ton of text in a txt.

It is an essay by definition, but i embellished it because it is gonna be my biggest writing project that i have attempted so far.

You will understand me, soon enough... 😈

[𝗣.𝗦. 𝗯𝘁𝘄 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗰𝗵 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘂𝗽]

Also Ballast Flora from Baroutrama i guess. The list is small but those things horrify me genuilly.

By The Way Storm i hope you get feeling better soon.😅

I barelly have any phobias, but when i do get scared, it's always down to my very core. Either "lightwork no reaction" or "trauma any% speedrun", no inbetween.

Like i think im only afraid of like, 2 things:

Bloodflies From Dishonored 2.

& uuh

Body Horror.

Anything infection or parasite related

A simular thing happened to me when i saw "Love Town" and got traumatized temporarily, on a late night like a year ago. I HATED the body horror in there, which is why from that point onward i FUCKING HATE LIMBUS COMPANY and anything related to it. It's too disturbing for me, for some fucking reason.

Is that the uuh, skullkid?

I'm afraid that if i die my family's also gonna die, and we're all gonna die without achieving anything in life whatsoever. That we weren't even given the chance to live our lifes, that it was all rigged from the very start. All that time and effort wasted just because of unluck

Ultimate Unfairness

Plus, i barelly value anything in life nowadays
Significantly less than prior in my life.
There are so little things that im willing to live for.
Im afraid that without those items(not even my family) from the past,i'm gonna kill myself.
Im afraid that id die soon,without achieving anything in life.

Not even a single person, cares about me.

Waste of money and time and effort and everything that other people put into me, I betrayed their expectations and now I'm nothing but a wasted shell. I'm sorry, not even God cares about me or even the deaf ears I'm writing this to.

Nobody gives a shit about me
My current state of self deserves it