I never felt allowed to explore my passions, I was told to seek Gods path and then told what Gods path was for me by them, not God.

Idk what made me think about that today, as I don't feel that way now. I'm confident in my career and I'm really good at my job - it just has nothing to do with God.

Lifeless eyes
Black eyes

And a ton more responsibility - what choice do I have

I'm on the verge of leaving here and just starting out on my own.

I have some side projects lined up and am getting my LLC in place this week. I'd rather not do this, tbh, it's a lot of work.

But if this place continues to jerk me around with no title change, no raises...

I'm socially awkward, autistic, with a habit of getting heated if shit doesn't make sense to me.

And after 10+ years of grinding day in and day out, it feels more and more like every single day nothing makes sense and I'm just on the edge.

I don't advocate well for myself.

I expect my work and my output to do that, because that's what I've been told will speak louder than words.

And yet, if I don't bang my chest and schmooze with the "higher ups" or "the right people" nothing will change.

Seems backwards.

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