Whether I think I look ugly or cute. Big or small. Darker or not. Imma eventually convince myself I'm beautiful no matter how I look. & Hopefully, finally get rid of these nasty ass thoughts!

This is Day 1 🩵

I'm hoping that I can eventually convince myself to believe I'm beautiful 100% of the time. That I'm ALWAYS that B*tch! I have hundreds of photos from cons, traveling, & events I've never posted. Imma start today by posting a photo every day from them. Then & now.

And while most of the time I now believe that, times like this, when I look at photos from events & things, I think "Damn I embarrassed myself thinking I looked good...thinking I was HER, when I looked a mess!"

I'm working on those thoughts, but it can be a struggle.

I think a lot of this stems from being bullied growing up by peers & my mother, & I've worked tirelessly for years convincing myself that I am indeed beautiful.

I don't post a lot of photos partly because of this. And try to destroy the negative thoughts by combating it with jokes & humor.

& The thing is, I'm a strong believer of not judging ppl based off looks, yet I sometimes find myself judging me.