As a silver lining I'd also always get a bf who'd told me that "it doesn't who I was before, what matter that I am the beautiful woman he loves now" or girl. I was 15 back then.

my daydreams had two specific plots that were always present: the aforementioned sudden change and a less happy plot that I could NEVER mention to anyone otherwise they'd hate me forever.

I should've made this more ragebaitey oh well

ct that that I'm useless and all of this is just a cop-out from actually trying to be a man with responsibilities so I can be even more lazy. Because that's how all of this shit works or smth

A degenerate fucking idiot who spends too much time with cartoon animals and self pity and not enough time with being an actually valuable part of societay. But if I tried to be useful for once, I bet 90%of my problems would immidately go away on their own, because everyshit I feel comes from the fa

Second reason for otherkin i sthe fact that they're a confusing and unceratin topic for me in which case my brain puts them in a "protected" state, which is essentially a reverse quarantine. Kind of same for tramsgemder actually. And women. Not furries, I have no problem calling myself furry.

I just think about wanting to interact with some people more but I always get this icky cringe feeling I can't rub off, and it just makes me question if I want to interact with that person. That's why I hate calling myself trans, that's why I still refuse the therian/otherkin label.

I just wish everyone was as misarble, ugly and a failure as me.

in other words i still feel shit and as hopeless as ever about my shitty body and hrt