The videos I did are pretty good but I think the real feat is just HOW much I did by myself. I pushed myself to the absolute limit. The concepts for my side commanded a bit more on the design and 3D side this time around, I worked on little exercises over the past year to improve and it paid off.

thank you

I work to compete against myself and I think I've succeeded this year but no one is going to care about the games I've done except for maybe one of them.

I get personal satisfaction but i'm sure people above me and other peers will talk shit about them but I can give two shits.

Really wish I didn't have to sit here troubleshooting and gamble on fucking After Effects choosing whether or not it wants to work or speed up. I am sitting here doing everything to speed up previews.

My personal life is in shambles, I haven't been able to exercise properly because of this project. I hope these videos are well received but I don't think I care anymore. It doesn't matter after they are done either, I'm just going into a depressive slump regardless.

I've always been introverted but I haven't let anxiety like this control me in years. If I am going to continue to work and travel like this, I cannot allow myself to be like this. I am constantly thinking the worst of everything and everyone, I am going to drive myself insane.

Generational photo

Eve Online is basically that but better