(3/3)
I’ve been feeling it for a while, that my death is nearing.

I knew something would break me.

I’ve been trying to get better for others, but if my mom says I’m useless… then that’s it. I’m useless.

But I can’t go yet, dying is expensive. I still have things to do before I fully give up.

(2/?)
And now today, something worse than that…

My mom called me useless.

I know I’m useless, but there was an illusion that maybe there was hope for me. Maybe I can do something to be useful.

Now I feel numb.

It kinda solidifies my resolve, I guess I will just give up soon.

(1/?)
Many people were misgendering and/or dead naming me around the time when I first started the doodle. It was gonna be fully fleshed out.

I was also feeling disgusted with myself because I’m disgusting.

I’m used to it and I usually don’t care, but it gets too much sometimes.

I loved ring pops so much as a kid, I remember people would pretend to propose to each other with them X’DD

Yay! I agree, she’s so pretty 🩷🩵

Ew just realized the quality is so trash because the drawing is so tiny

Riamu Yumemi? 👉👈

(4/4)
Can’t they just stop making assumptions about me? Can’t they just let me win at some point? Why do I always have to be the butt of the joke?

I should be more firm but I can’t since I’m a people pleaser and that person doesn’t seem to understand what depression even is. This makes me so sick.

(3/?)
I’m so tempted to say that all the mentally ill things that I think in those moments.

Like how I actually eat 1 - 2 meals a day because I’m so disgustingly gluttonous. Or how I just wanna lay and rot away because I can’t do anything to turn the situation around.

(2/?)
I know they were just joking and it was “roleplaying”?? Not really since it wasn’t explicitly said.

But no I’m not fat, no I don’t cause fires in the kitchen, no I’m not always eating/snacking on junk. I’m not even allowed to “sit in a box” or “go out the door” because I’m “too big to fit”.

(1/?)
This cringe ahh ugly unsightly disgusting drawing was inspired by my uselessness.

Or at least, the feeling of uselessness when this person just wouldn’t stop turning things around so they’re always right or that that the conversation works in their favour.

Heck ye 😎

Thank you very much!! :D

Thank youuu!! :D