Idk if Data Mining would still be fun on it’s own tho, since I haven’t seen much of it’s own gimmick yet.

**last November.

Forgot it’s been a year already.

Maybe I should at this point? Cuz I thought I’d be able to move on from it and fully accept that I’m single, but doesn’t seem like it’s happening anytime soon.

But the bug is still there, talking negatively to me, and while I’m able to hide it more, even by myself, it’s prepared to come out every time, like I just wanna swat that annoying little shit so badly.

Like the more that bug crawls back in, I keep feeling childish and selfish for even thinking about that stuff. Like if no one is interested in dating me, so what? My goal is not to find a relationship, my goal is to become a game developer and game director. I don’t even want to look for love rn.

Like I don’t feel as extreme as last time, thankfully, and feel more human I’m comparison, but that one annoying little big keeps crawling back,saying things like “too late” or “you’ll never find a partner”,which bothers me considering that I try to focus on my studies and personal works and hobbies