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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 21h

releasing two songs in one week.

- Tout est en Ordre.
- HEADACHE

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 17h

that's what i do too, but it's still annoying. in some cases, with straight hair, it makes the side bangs look too flat. but with dreads, it's just so thick it makes the glasses fit weird or uncomfortable.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 21h

adrenaline rush + sensation of control within your own misery, i guess.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 21h

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 21h

releasing two songs in one week.

- Tout est en Ordre.
- HEADACHE

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 1d

if i wasn't scared of surviving && fucking up my liver, i would take benzos && alcohol right now.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 1d

i wanted to to cut myself today, so i spent 1 hour cleaning my cutter. to no avail.

but i kept going, && no matter how long i spent flushing it, those weird dark spots were screaming "wound infection".

so i kicked my trashcan until it was unrecognizable && my foot hurt. && i don't feel any better.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 1d

bangs are just so fucking annoying with glasses. if i trusted myself enough, i would probably get contact lens.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 1d

i had a psychotic episode recently. it's not the first time ever, but it's been a while. might have to do with going cold turkey.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 6d

dizzy self-portrait.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 2d

second phase looks absolutely rough. but as soon as one of them is actually down, the fight will be free.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 2d

[silksong spoilers]

the footage turned out laggy, and the audio is messed up, too. next time, i'll use obs instead of the steam recording feature. clearly, my laptop can't handle it.

but anyway, i'm getting the hang of it and even allow myself to tank damage to attack them now.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 2d

oh, thank you!! i'm not really sure of what i'm doing though

(yours is really soft && warm i like it a lot)

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Wupiiu🫧 @wupiiu.bsky.social · 2d

Not daily Yume Nikki / Madotsuki (#30)
Dream world drip

I would want a batsu clip irl and other ones too
#yumenikki #ゆめにっき #madotsuki #art

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 3d

if only shipping && customs didn't cost an arm, i'd just stick to those website i visit for hours.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 3d

each time i see cool lolita clothes on vinted, someone buys them before me. this isn't unfair. i want to be gender && elegant.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 4d

also, don't play on valium. it's rough.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 4d

wow the audio is so fucked. sorry, steam recording lags so much on my laptop.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 4d

[silksong spoilers]

alright, i'm ever-so-slightly getting used to the double pattern thingy. but it's really hard to keep track of their teleportations, subtle animations cues while also having to decide on how to act on it next.

i really have to stop pogo once they can do aerial attacks.

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 5d

i flagged it just in case, but it might be useless in some accounts since you can decide to display sensitive content by default .we should really have an actual straight-up spoiler flair.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 5d

[silksong spoilers]

ok, i'm FINALLY getting started && it's rough. i suck.

also the barbed bracelet is only there to force myself to be more focused && get used to their double patterns before doing it normally... unless i feel confident enough at some point. but let's be real (no).

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coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 5d

i feel this. when you struggle to focus on anything else, it's as if your heart stop for a second as a weird shiver spreads to your throat. it just makes your whole body feel awkward && awful to be in. sometimes it even genuinely hurts when it starts a panic atk.

at least that's how it feels to me.

coffee. @cockmonster63.bsky.social · 6d

i'm 'impressed' by how physical anxiety && depression actually are. i feel heavy, exhausted && want to expel vomit all the time. i also feel like invisible hands are pushing against my chest && gripping my throat, if that makes sense.

i even had a dream about this invisible hands concept.

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