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James

@dyanhiel.bsky.social

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Another gay on social media..groundbreaking. Plant addict. Neurodivergent mess. 🚩 Way behind everyone else. Audience to my own life. Fun fact: I've been with more social media platforms than I have other people. 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🇬🇧 Austisticme.blogspot.com

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James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · Nov 28

Hey babe, are you a hermit crab 🦀 cos I'm an empty shell 🐚

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1h

I created these previously. #Crochet

Crocheted flying pigs

Crocheted unicorn

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1h

It's not even full size yet either, worryingly. Don't think I can contain it eventually.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1h

Thank you Aaron 🙏

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1h

My hookeri is massive.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 2h

Age and gravity Joe. Age and gravity 😆

a man with a very ugly face is making a funny face while looking at the camera .

Alt: a man with a very ugly face is making a funny face while looking at the camera .

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James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 3h

You never see who does the washing up!

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 3h

Ima try!

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 3h

Pinning everything on Thursday's interview being successful, and the the role being a good fit. Because if not, then oh fuck

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 4h

You hope it's the cats..

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 4h

I'm afraid I'd just need to tease you out of it

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 4h

Nobody tell Rachel, she'll demand someone builds a house on them.

Tiny 2mm rare snail found at Wiltshire nature reserve - BBC News share.google/PFPEFXocataM...

Tiny 2mm rare snail found at Wiltshire nature reserve

The Desmoulin’s whorl snail is a protected species in the UK and lives in wetland.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 6h

Thank you for saying. This path we walk eh.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

just me and my feels, and silence and an aching that, at best, is like a faint migraine one tries to ignore, but at worse, a nauseating ache that not even darkness soothes.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

someone real, not a fantasy, a crush. Maybe I'm a bit damaged from years of being locked up inside, maybe I'm too deep and emotional, maybe too it's the autism, I dunno, but the handful of dates I've ever had has always seen guys slowly back away and then run. 🤷‍♂️ So it's always

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

themes have mostly been my life too. And although I'm now the most comfortable in my skin I've ever been, and I'm out, and I have gay friends, and go to Prides, there remains such longing, unfulfilment, loneliness. Aching that I can only repress because I'm unable to find

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

to get over the insane and stupid fantasy and feelings.

Boots- Sullivan is a spitting image of that guy. And I guess the ghosts are stirring. Plus the show about repressed, unlived, even self-loathing sexuality and unspoken longing, fighting what should be embraced and lived, those

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

into a huge crush over him. To see him would leave me shaking. I agonsied for weeks, a fantasy of a light in my darkness. Anyway, after seeing his name on his bank card, and looking online, I saw that yes, he was in the forces, and also married with a new baby too. It took me a while but I managed

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

I literally felt stunned. Something about him.. the piercing eyes, the way he carried himself. I saw him a few times in store. And, because of where I was at inside myself, I guess I took that stunning stranger and projected so much feeling and dreaming onto him in my mind, and ended up going

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

always feel a pang of longing from the sadness of my loneliness when I'd see a hot guy (forces or not), couldn't just enjoy a view, nope, always sent into emotional serials. Heck, did I learn how to mask back then. Anyway, one time I happened to glance up from my till, and saw this guy and, well,

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 15h

I'm enjoying #Boots, but it's also making me achey inside.

Years ago, when I worked retail, there was a nearby Marine base. There'd often be guys pop in the store and you could just tell them were from the base, that disciplined way they moved. Me, as a repressed, depressed, and emotional gay, I'd

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 18h

Tired, feeling of falling flat.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1d

Interview #1 done. Good practice. Don't think it's a feasible role for me though, due to 3 or 4 office visits per year needed. 5 hours travel each way for a start.

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1d

Fingers crossed 🤞

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1d

Merry Christmas!

James @dyanhiel.bsky.social · 1d

Hopefully just the one. The trails were by my plants and I found it under a pot.