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pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇

@pumpkinstars.bsky.social

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hi im pumpkin. she/her. 🧠🌶️. Asexual. Anti-racist. I like gardens and colors. ME/CFS, hEDS, MCAS, POTS, Fibro. nearly bedridden. i love people and also people scare me. 🇺🇸

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pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · Jan 17

hi i’m pumpkin

i’m disabled and home bound, mostly bed bound. i write about my life and my experiences with #MECFS #MCAS #EDS #Fibro #POTS

oh! i also sometimes post nail art ☺️ my hobby

i used to do volunteer work in my community but i got too sick

now, i manage my illnesses and work from home

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pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 39m

the sun is out

a nice brisk chilly day i think

it’s going to get hotter over the weekend

but today feels like fall and it is lovely

i ache a lot because it is fall haha. but it is a nice day to see a glimpse of

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

i think it’s ridiculous that crying and being sad means i check where my
epi pen is

#MCAS problems haha

#NEISvoid

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

i want oatmeal with raisins

i don’t have any raisins

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

but i can’t work any more
my body was done and i listening

so that’s a tomorrow problem

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

i did more work to help favorite coworker

and. do my own job really because that’s my job haha. i say i help her and i do but like, that is my job i’m not going out of my way for her on top of some other job.

i hope it helps

i didn’t get a chance to review the new document from the other team

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pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

oh that’s great 💛💛

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

it’s so awful
MECFS sucks i hate it
💙🦋

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

a beautiful tree 💛

i really enjoy your pictures so much

i can’t go outside often and it’s nice to see outside

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

or idk
it’s more nuanced than that

there’s tons of disabled people voting red

but i’m tired and nuance is not my friend right now

so pretend i made more sense please heh

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

but we were talking about how sick i am so i just answer that

i don’t broadcast the social justice importance at work

but like it’s pretty obvious what i believe in from everything else i say or do

at this point being disabled and open about that means not right wing.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

thank you all for being my friends

someone at work ask me how i stay upbeat with all my problems (they said it nicer tho)

i shared that having online community with people who get it and how much chronic illness sucks is such a comfort to me

and neurodivergent people and social justice people!

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

aww yay!! that’s so great to hear

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 1h

oh no!!!

i hope it’s a quick recovery? back injuries are so awful every movement uses your back it seems

also i am just noticing the witch part of your screen name now how cute! 🧙‍♀️🎃👻

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 2h

i sent my condolences

in between work tasks

more work now

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

my old team with the new cool woman, i have work to do there too. a lot of it lol way too much.

it’s what needs to be done but it should have been done a month ago because i asked for it two months ago.

and now it’s on work bestie’s plate and mine and others and it’s so much.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

i need to figure out how else i can help work bestie

i don’t really know what she needs

i can make one more diagram of a guess but i have no idea if it will be useful or not. it could be trash or it could help her out so much.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

i won’t be on one project i’m just like. reserved by this team to work with them on whatever they want.

and that’s more solid than getting on a long term project.

so that’s nice.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

it is a relief to know i don’t have to worry about the bench for a full year.

that’s actually really rare here to get that kind of assurance. even on long projects that we all know will take time, like a full year or more, people who do what i do don’t usually stay the whole time.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

this is a lot
of work and it’s ridiculous

i am calm about it
i recognize it’s an overwhelming amount of work but i feel nothing about that.

all i can do is what i can. and that’s all i will get done.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

i need to focus on work today
i am clinging to it
trying to focus on it because it is manageable

every time my throat burns, i try to stop it by thinking about work. my spreadsheets. my charts.

my uneven diagram made quickly for favorite coworker.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

it’s still hard. needing permission and approval for stuff, when my boss is chaos.

but i’m not in charge
and i’m glad for that

she told me i was in charge, and then i wasn’t in charge and that took a lot of adjustment for me. it made a tangle. it hurt and was painful and bad.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

it’s good to focus on it.

on work.

it’s calming to focus on it now at this stage.
or. in these circumstances. when the people i’m working with are doing their job and being honest not chaos.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

my old team sent a file
over that i asked them to make

and i need to review it but it’s so frickin long
and tedious

and a bit. idk i’m not overwhelmed by it but it’s overwhelming fav coworker lol and i’m like welp, we do what we can at this point.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

fav coworker is tapped out on that so i’ve been doing most of the work with my old team. the new woman leading is good so that’s nice tho.

but it’s a lot to do even so.

i’m glad i’m not in charge of anything.

pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇 @pumpkinstars.bsky.social · 3h

its a mess right now at work.

my old team did nothing for two months and now they’re doing stuff but everyone is so busy, and the old team is asking questions and it’s like dude, this should have been finished a month ago.