pumpkin 🎃 👻🦇
@pumpkinstars.bsky.social
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hi im pumpkin. she/her. 🧠🌶️. Asexual. Anti-racist. I like gardens and colors. ME/CFS, hEDS, MCAS, POTS, Fibro. nearly bedridden. i love people and also people scare me. 🇺🇸
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pumpkinstars.bsky.social
hi i’m pumpkin

i’m disabled and home bound, mostly bed bound. i write about my life and my experiences with #MECFS #MCAS #EDS #Fibro #POTS

oh! i also sometimes post nail art ☺️ my hobby

i used to do volunteer work in my community but i got too sick

now, i manage my illnesses and work from home
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i often feel like it’s hard to breathe for several reasons. none of them involve my lungs haha. stuff like low blood volume or MCAS reaction.

and i am realizing there is another reason.

when i hurt so badly
that even regular breathing moving my body that little bit makes everything hurt more.
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
💛💛💛

it’s extra hard to know if i am
depressed or just being realistic or finally processing how much disabled life can suck
the struggle is real

💛💛💛
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
haha i keep only remembering that i have halloween candy in a bag in the kitchen. when i’m lying in bed and not anywhere near getting up

i have pumpkin spice caramels! and halloween junior mints!
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
sometimes i wonder if i will some day be eaten up by fantasy worlds and living in my head

and if that would make it easier

i get so bored lying here in bed sometimes. it can be so incredibly boring.
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
an asexual word for
oh i guess it’s different
something about enjoying reading about stuff?
but not self envisioning or wanting it?

i forget the name
it’s almost time for bed for me
so i am getting sleepy
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
my brain feels murky and marsh like right now
i don’t want a partner right now, i don’t want a realistic relationship with all the responsibilities it entails, i just want the cute anime moments haha

oh! there’s a word for that. somewhere.
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i still think of bestie sometimes, when ideas of a partner or loved one come up. when i see something on pinterest.

and he was the last person i wanted to sleep next to. so i thought of him now.

he doesn’t do stuff like anime love stories though
that’s ok
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i miss sleeping next to someone, sometimes

and hm i just typed “i have no idea if i would like that anymore”
but that’s not true
a year ago, i slept next to nurse jerk. we were both masked.

weird i forgot that and him lol
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
the above post brought to you all by an episode where a sleepy main character girl crawls into bed of the love interest boy, and he respectfully adores her

i could totally do that lol
i could totally fall asleep lots of places
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
anime love stories are going to mess with me and my lonely self

showing me these unobtainable standards of devotion and care

bar is high now mmhmm

hehe
anime life feels so easy
some stories feel so easy to live in
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i did it
i
got food
i got drink

i am back in bed

yay me

pain means i can’t enjoy food as much. blah.
but i got my needs done and it was kinda enjoyable!
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
my Iv schedule isn’t great rn

i needed more fluids and now there’s going to be like 1/10 of the bag left and bolus ing that before sleep would make me have to pee so fast but it’s not enough for a full sleep
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i have to get up and i really don’t want to

i’ve wanted a kitchen snack for a while now and haven’t been able to move

but now i gotta get up so. i’m going to get it.

and it’s gonna hurt and that’s gonna suck
but i will have a snack
and that will be nice
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
the outside of the pumpkin house has lots of tiny pumpkins in lots of colors!!

like confetti pumpkins hehe i like these eee!!
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
these were my nails nearly a year ago! i’ve gotten a lot better i think

doing my nails is kind of like my PT for my hands. and i’ve gained a lot more strength and they got steadier!!

im glad i can do more things with my hands now

and, i still like my old nails too! the bead frame took foreverrr
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i’m really really proud of the nail portrait i did. i’ve wanted to do it for a while and it took a lot leading up to this

still working on my technique, as candy corn nail shows. but pumpkin portrait is so cute and tidy! adorable on my nail, so tiny smol

#NEISvoid
very close up of 3 painted nails. a greenish grey nail with a gold rectangle surrounded by gold beads, with a tiny pumpkin in the middle. a yellow orange white nail like candy corn. and an orange pumpkin nail with gold stars for eyes  and a wavy crescent moon mouth
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wendysparrow.bsky.social
Making pumpkin fidgets (where you can swap the inner section) for my family and the few trick-or-treaters we get, and I didn't love the copper filament for this as much as I expected. Maybe I just need to make better color combos. I am planning on Tiffany's blue pumpkins.
Small 3d-printed pumpkins in a variety of colors with striping of other colors. You can swap the inner sections between them to get different combinations. Me taking the center out of a purple and black pumpkin. And I've taken the orange center out of a nearby white pumpkin. And I've swapped them like an amazing magician so I have an orange and black pumpkin and a white and purple magic.
*Wendy does jazz hands* Ta-dah!
Yes, maybe a video would have been better. But, a video? In this economy? No, I'm kidding. I'm just terrible at videos and crap like that.
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
that’s really great 💛 how lovely to watch them all grow up!

and yeah… the pandemic was really detrimental on kids and made a huge impact
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
Yay look at this pumpkin house!!

yay pumpkin season hehe!!!

thank you @willowdraven.bsky.social for making such a lovely pumpkin house hehe
willowdraven.bsky.social
🪵 2025/10/11
The past few days have caught up with my body, so I've been in Minecraft working on a pumpkin house for @pumpkinstars.bsky.social whilst mostly confined to the computer chair. 🎃🏡🎃
Interior of a minecraft house made out of pumpkins, with patterned green carpet on most of the stone brick floor, which is exposed in the kitchen situated at the opposite end of the oblong room from the pink bed. Daytime exterior shot of the pumpkin house showing the surrounding pumpkin field filled with many specialty modded pumpkins added scattered amongst the normal ones. Night exterior shot of the pumpkin house showing the sea behind it and the vibrant quartz windows glowing.
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
eeeeyah!! yay pumpkin house!! eeeheh the inside is all pumpkin too i love it

and the glowy windows

yay!! pumpkin time!!!
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
a year ago, i couldn’t get to the kitchen every day. and it was a good day when i could get to the kitchen.

but now, i can get to the kitchen every day! multiple times a day! i can even eat sitting in the kitchen!
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
i can see tiny pumpkin from the hallway when i leave my room hehe

eee so i can look at tiny pumpkin even on days i can’t make it to the kitchen because of symptoms flaring
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
last year i got tiny pumpkin!

and this year if i can i want to get another tiny pumpkin
i didn’t last grocery time because i already spent way too much but next groceries i want to!!

i would have gotten one at my pharmacy and store run but there were none close enough to grab on my quick trip
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
everyone this is tiny pumpkin!

tiny pumpkin lives in the kitchen

tiny pumpkin makes me happy ☺️🎃
a tiny pumpkin on a kitchen counter
pumpkinstars.bsky.social
ooo i found my orange hair tie!

i’ve been using purple which i will still use since my shirt is orange and purple orange is a halloween color scheme too!

but i’m glad i have another option for when i wear more black clothes

yay options
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willowdraven.bsky.social
Two steps forward and some groceries back.

It's so hard to make the money stack.

Anything helps! 🙏⚒️💕💸🏳‍⚧♿💜
willowdraven.bsky.social
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