☣️Toxyk Melodi🎶
@toxykmelodi.bsky.social
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As much as it pains me to say it I'm going to cancel the Halloween raffle I was going to host. After this possibly permanent break up? I'm just. Mentally and physically I'm doing absolutely awful. I'm so sorry but I'll try to make it up to everyone after I get help and start feeling better 😭
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
I'm tired of trying to find "safe" places for artists. It's exhausting and we shouldn't have to 😭
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toxykmelodi.bsky.social
So you're telling me I have shit memory not just from anxiety and depression, but also my anger problems? Ffs 🫠 Explains a lot tho.

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toxykmelodi.bsky.social
My favorite part of the psyche interviews as a spiritual person who converses with her spirit guide daily was the following:

Doctor/Nurse: "And do you see or hear things no one else does?"

Me, my spirit guide on my shoulder absolutely losing her shit with laughter: "Nope. Not at all."
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
I know the meds said they would cause drowsiness but Jesus Christ this is....gonna fucking suck. But if it helps me be less angry, anxious and depressed then so be it. Still sucks tho lol.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Doctors: You shouldn't eat anything before you go to sleep, it's bad for x, y and z reasons!

Also Doctors: Here's this pill to help you sleep! But make sure you take it with food :)

Gee. Thanks. Not contradictory at all 😂
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whimsicaldragon.bsky.social
Outta this world Jolteon!

#pokemon #oc #furry #jolteon
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
To top it off a fucking oublic safety cop actually came by and asked if I was okay while mom and.....her husband needs an alias... Austin, were still in the store. It was so humiliating 😭😭😭
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Me, telling my mom multiple times no, I don't want to fucking go to the river market right now. I want to just go home, take my pills, and TRY to work before rush hour. Her husband takes us anyway. And now I'm bawling, in public on the bench. Cool cool cool.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
We were down here this time last year during my first fucking break up with her. And all this has done is open old wounds and pour salt into the new ones. Jfc why can't she ever just take no for a fucking answer? I don't want to be here right now.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Me, telling my mom multiple times no, I don't want to fucking go to the river market right now. I want to just go home, take my pills, and TRY to work before rush hour. Her husband takes us anyway. And now I'm bawling, in public on the bench. Cool cool cool.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Would anybody take anyone(s) here for $15? toyhou.se/ToxykMelodi/... With everything going on I haven't been able to work as much and now the cars pretty low on gas and I've got nothing after getting meds. PayPal only rn, I've lost my cashapp card. Not having a good week. 🫠
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wishingwhimsy.bsky.social
Finished mixed media piece!
#furry #art #furryart #spider #kidcore
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
At this point I've given up on moving them I don't care anymore I JUST want to start my meds as soon as I can 😭
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Because driving around downtown or even others driving me, doesn't matter. Just. Spikes all of the anxiety 🫠🫠 So I tried to get them to transfer the prescriptions, called about 6 times to places back and forth and no one wants to transfer even tho I was told by several people they could do that-
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Y'know monday everything went so smoothly. Yesterday and today? Not so much 🫠 I'm mostly just upset because on my bloody paper it has the specific location I SHOULD have had my pills sent to. But someone fucked up and did it for downtown which I wanted to avoid-
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pastelplushi.bsky.social
(vent art from a few days ago)

Growth and healing as a system is really hard. Handling trauma when your main fronters are children is especially difficult

#cptsd #kidfur
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Oh this hit too close to home and now I'm bawling. But that does mean it causes the audience to feel for sure. So thanks even tho it hurts 🥹
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
I don't know what it is about this time of year but I fucking hate it tbh
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
I can never catch a break because LAST year around this time there was a break up with her, and then my dad who I never met tried to reach out, and I was like "I'll make him wait a few days he waited til now" and then he fckn 💀⚰️
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
On top of the relationship thing. My grandparents decided to spring upon mom last minute that he wants to move out by the end of the month. Possibly in here. I don't know if I can handle all this 😭 My stepdads Conald Dump loving ass is bad enough I don't wanna hear it every day from my grandparents.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Oh my God the wait is long as hecc compared to everything yesterday 🫠 more time to be anxious and have all the brain thoughts that hurt yaayyy. At least they're playing relaxing instrumental music and now music with lyrics cuz too many songs been fucking me UP.
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
Going to the walk in clinic today to hopefully get like. A diagnosis and pills in the same day, as told to me by one of the other clinic peeps I talked to yesterday. The sooner the better, wish me luck 💪🏻
toxykmelodi.bsky.social
So I'm feeling a bit better at least