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Juliana

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Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 4h

sometimes i do wish i were more immediately in touch with why i feel a type of way without running the work I constantly do more acitvely but there are times like now where that feels better as something you can't quite grasp. If anything intellectualizing it can get in the way. anyway goodnight

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 4h

cant quite put my finger on why but im feeling a bit of an ache. Some melancholy lately. call it a stereotype but the irish catholic cycles of abuse and repression in my family do tend to lean that way, it's my entire extended family's lean tbh. But idk. maybe i'll know why tomorrow. goodnight <3

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 9h

whatever Andrew Cuomo's team is telling him keep at it 👍
we need some good entertainment and laughs in this hellscape of a time. Zohran is such a breath of fresh air, meaning we no longer have to settle for dogshit 'candidates' like Andrew Cuomo. Now we get just get to sit back and laugh

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 9h

Andrew Cuomo has replaced Chris Christie in being the guy who reappears only for a new round of public humiliation and political embarassment that is so astounding you wonder how anyone told him to get on stage. Genuinely doing a public service as clown in the town square for the public's amusement

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 12h

me too, they were underutilized on SNL but they had some great sketches. I do like their podcast i've been listening to it :)

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 12h

the reason hope can be so bitter in spots like this is that there's a little window now where I feel like I can breathe to set stuff up to go back to school, hopefully find work and then maybe have energy and money again to live. But that's so fragile at the moment and takes a lot of work to utilize

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 12h

some kind of sad(?), some other emotions too I guess. This is a lonely spot to be in, has been for the past 9 months. Not the worst nowadays since i've figured out how to navigate living in a bigoted hellhole again but like. Idk. I want work and a partner and friends but that's rough living here

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 13h

it's very rare I have something good to say about a man but Kyle Mooney, and Beck Bennett by proxy, get the pass

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 13h

i love Kyle Mooney so much his old youtube channel's video are like an integral part of my young adult life. He's so funny especially in those older videos in such a particular weird way. Just saw him in Parks and Rec and got unreasonably excited I love Kyle Mooney what can I say

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

it's such a shame how much of a fan of latex I am and how I have none at all except some cheap faux-latex suit that probably doesn't fit me anymore. Just one of the many monetary+style limitations that come with being a poor hot trans woman 😔

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

admittedly im not great at cutting my own hair. This time i actually did a pretty good job but maybe ill find money to get some professional cutting done for the first time in over a year. It would look really cute done right in a little pixie cut tbh i lack the skills at this point to pull it off

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

so i had to cut my hair pretty short again bc I realized how many still critically bleach-damaged ends I had left. definitely a learning experience bc it took a lot of my hair shafts straight up dying or breaking down to really short lengths to get the message but at least my hair is healthy now

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

all in all it's a hilarious show that clearly has some killer comedic writing+one off bits and recurring bit characters like councilman jam, sewage joe, lil sebastian, Jean-Ralphio. And I think if it didn't venture into larger political points later on I'd have a lot less to criticize with the show

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

on one hand I actually admire the willingness to engage with and humanize local politics and focus on that social cohesion and understanding that is necessary for collective action. But on the other hand the show is very poorly equipped to say any more than that and it insists on trying to do so

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

instead of real substantive challenge of any kind the underlying political ideology of parks and recreation is that everything is mostly okay for everyone which was not true at the time. It truly reflects how white america basically considered themselves "off the hook" after Obama was elected

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

also the way the show increasingly leans into girlboss neoliberal 'optimism' is gross. Like I think this show very much reflects the white reaction to Obama-era 'progressivism' that is, funny enough, shown to be very paper thin in how the show has aged in its centering of certain political figures

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 14h

i've been rewatching Parks and Recreation and it's very funny still, I do really enjoy it. What has stood out is how awful the character of Ron Swanson has aged. not that he was a gem in the first place but wow he's the worst at times, can be so unbearably obstinate both personally and politically

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 15h

ePothex sells it on their site, micronized progesterone powder. never had an issue getting it there

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 18h

i feel for the struggle, i do. I've had massive lapses in insurance, housing, even basic food and shelter. You just have to value therapy though, in every condition. like when you don't have the tools+space to process your stuff you take it out on others and that requires some work

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 18h

again this is the furthest thing from judgment. Therapy especially in the US is dogshit quality in a lot of instances, hard to access. It's just such an important thing ESPECIALLY for trans women. The women i've been with have had extensive trauma histories and need therapy as a resource

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 18h

this is something I say more from what should be provided rather than putting on 'personal responsibility' but if you're a trans woman please be in a therapy setting, and unless you've been in that setting a long time-- stay there. Life is so fucking hard for us and so many of us have serious trauma

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 1d

depends on the use. if you're not going to be using toys and it's just for anal I would so suggest pjur's backdoor silicone lube
like other people have suggested if you're using silicone toys at all with it the wet gold platinum silicone-water hyrbid is really good

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 1d

girl you are unbelievably hot omg 🔥💕💕

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 1d

do i need to learn how to apply foundation and find one with the right skin tone for me? Like i want to be able to have super done-up looks for going out and i guess i should try and get good with it? There's a LOT of makeup stuff I still want to learn it's just a bit daunting sometimes

Juliana @xjul1anax.bsky.social · 1d

i went with apple music which has some great features, audio quality. But like ive looked into it and there's no perfect choice. Anything other than Spotify is a good choice at this point tbh