aiba
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aiba
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rant account

please don't expect any consistency
please don't assume my story
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Is there a way I can type all the little nothings in my head at once and be understood whole

and have someone rub their thumb gently on my hand as a silent comfort
Or run their hand through my hair without anticipating pain
and to cry without worry of being yelled at
I hope i die but not by my own means so nobody can be mad at me
May 13, 2025 at 12:02 PM
she's suffocating me in my own home
everything feels wrong
I wanna go home but home is where it hurts the most
I wish shed just stop stalling and get it over with
May 13, 2025 at 11:44 AM
and they wonder why i can't sleep

meanwhile i have to sit with them doing this every night
i fucking hate them
April 28, 2025 at 5:22 AM
Is there a way I can type all the little nothings in my head at once and be understood whole

and have someone rub their thumb gently on my hand as a silent comfort
Or run their hand through my hair without anticipating pain
and to cry without worry of being yelled at
April 23, 2025 at 7:37 AM
You guys ever do that thing where you wanna die doing a good deed to finally feel appreciated
April 23, 2025 at 7:16 AM
they know I'm awake yet still continue

why doesn't she just give me away already
she can have her flings and leave me to rot in the same way she is now
April 23, 2025 at 5:30 AM
I hope he knows how thankful I am that he's there for me

I could never overstate how much that means
in the littlest ways he's done so much for me
April 22, 2025 at 4:16 PM
once he heard what happened he said he was sorry that I had to experience that

him just listening to that and saying that simple sentence was more than she had ever done for me
April 22, 2025 at 4:15 PM
every time it's over I feel like I was overreacting until it happens agajn
April 22, 2025 at 12:23 PM
why is being honest like being naked

I need chainmail of denial fr🙏
April 21, 2025 at 11:20 AM
thinking too long aches the soul like that bitter medicine you had as a kid
April 21, 2025 at 11:17 AM
my past 3 days have been so draining fuckk it's all crying and regret
April 21, 2025 at 11:03 AM
webweaving is one of my few hopes in the world

somewhere there is someone as quiet and pained as me and we will cry together over miles
April 21, 2025 at 9:23 AM