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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 1d

Besotted with breath
in this little nirvana i made,
i plead with change
to not break me again.

Please, i got all my shards
back together,
years of effort,
held together
by duct tape and twine.

Before i wallow,
remember:
do my woes matter
when so many suffer
beyond the grasp
of mercy?

10/24/25

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 2d

Two paths lie before me
like so many in the past,
but in this case,
i know,
that the winds of change
will blow,
without a second thought
to my bliss.

i create all the joy i can
in these moments i have
to cultivate compassion
and realize gratitude is grace.

23 October 2025, 11:07 pm by ashafenn

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 3d

Why is he mad at puffer fish?

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 3d

Screens pour sorrow
into my lap,
until i can barely see
anything else -
and here i am,
using the same vehicle
to remind myself
that there is compassion,
even if all i have
is what i create here
in my solitude
and safety.
Let me use this time well
for i will never know
how long i have.
22 Oct 2025

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 3d

Wearing down,
i dissolve
in this joy
i manufacture -
and i know cannot last,
for change is the only constant.

So i create compassion
in music, language, and painting,
so i can be held aloft
as the ground shifts
under my feet.

Lost and blessed,
i have become expert
in enduring.

22 oct 2025

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 5d

Change
exhausts me.
The world
of people and things
terrifies us all,
so many suffer;
being safe is a privilege
like never before in my life.
i keep telling people
about passing by default,
poverty, pain,
all the suffering,
because i need to remember
that i endure,
flowing like water.

20 Oct 2025

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 7d

i do what i can,
pour mercy on the memory
forgive both of us,
and remember, sometimes
goodbye is best.

3/3

18 October 2025, 3:46 pm
#impromptupoetry

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 7d

and i know her issues with me
have resolved.
All but the physical disability,
and i have to remember forcibly
that was enough
to drive her away.

i grieve her again
in another way
and love myself
with twice the ferocity.

2/3
#impromptupoetry

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 7d

She was the friend
i never thought i'd lose,
the one who swore
the camaraderie
would flourish
until one of us
exhaled that last time.

Like sisters,
we shared so much.

Only, now i'm finally clear headed
in a way i haven't been in years,
coaxing this unreasonable hope,

1/3
#impromptupoetry

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 12d

There is still so much wrong,
the pain drove me to my knees
not five minutes ago,
but i cannot stop giving thanks
to have my wits nimble
and hope in my trembling hands.

2/2

13 October 2025, by ashafenn

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 12d

After years,
i can cry
with both eyes
and the tears
have been welling up
at random intervals.

i am so grateful.

Beloved breath
no longer has to be
supervised.
Speaking is clear,
singing even better,
and my eyes improved.

1/2
#impromptupoetry

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 12d

Most of my ancestors
left destruction
among their families,
in the world.
i know what privilege & luck
have bought me.
This peace was not earned
any more than the trauma
that preceded it.
i pray to do better
than the past,
to lead with love,
cultivating compassion
rather than cruelty.

10/13/2025

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 13d

Tonight’s video is a poem, ‘each breath beloved’ youtu.be/7FmI1_x9t4A?...

every breath beloved

YouTube video by asha fenn

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 13d

but it is enough
for me to remember
there are much worse things
than being alone and broken
in this condition.
3/3

#disability #impromptupoetry

12 October 2025, by ashafenn at 9:44 am

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 13d

Only here we are,
disability making me
more hopeless and helpless
than i would like
in this sea
of unmet need.

And it is nothing
compared to what others
are dealing with
given the woe
pouring in from the screens, ... 2/3

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 13d

Filled with trepidation,
i try to solve the problem
myself,
as always.

It has felt
my whole life
like i am the only one
that i can rely on.

1/3

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 14d

i am relentless as water
and twice as determined
to steal joy
out of suffering's grasp.

3/3

11 October 2025, 1:17 pm by ashafenn

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 14d

My messy nirvana
slowly becomes neat.

i'm purging the debris
of lost dreams.

Just let me cry today,
and i'll be joyful again
if not tomorrow,
then soon.

2/3

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 14d

Change is the only constant,
i know,
but today has been edging to tears
since kind help left,
In my impotence,
i've been learning
about points and other things,
selling this home
i've cherished for so long
became real.

1/3 #impromptupoetry

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 16d

If you don't know spoon theory, then have fun with the googling, but sweet kittens, i set every metaphorical spoon i have on fire. And, today was a miracle of joy - another area of the house has been addressed. My messy nirvana is slowly becoming a neat one. i'm beyond grateful. #disabledjoy

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 18d

@nealharkness.bsky.social now i'm making earworms

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 18d

Art from the first week of October, with a song i write two days ago. My voice was good, for once, so i started singing poems as rounds and omg, it's spooky and cool. Art made in Artstudio Pro, music Garageband. #art #music youtube.com/shorts/e1U86...

october 2025 no 1 by ashafenn

YouTube video by asha fenn

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 19d

Took me half an hour to get my body able to move today the pain was so bad, but i keep the tablet with me (i have a whole bed desk situation) and this morning was able to start with some wonderful painting. #art

an image from my bed desk: two images are projected onto the wall - a blue being looking at us with such compassion and another dancing in clouds, with an image of the work i finished this morning on the tablet with a tiny shadow of my arm on it.

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ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 20d

Just wrote three rounds and one of them i recorded twice, with and without drums. Garage band is the coolest and transformed a few hours of my life into bliss. #makingmusic

ashafenn @ashafenn.bsky.social · 20d

i have a warning about adult content on patreon.com/ashafenn/, because i do talk about chronic pain, disability and stealing joy from struggle, as well as the occasional artful nude because i've never figured out how a being made of fire or water would wear clothes. 2/2

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dancing in letter and line

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