中文居然能写这么多废话，天呢。

我希望自己即使躺在垃圾堆里也有人能来问问我需不需要帮助，当然那个人不要是任何志愿者或者社区和政府的工作人员。我需要一个人很阴湿地粘着我让我感觉自己活着且被人爱。
是我不够好还是太好了又或者我就是很容易成为别人的餐巾纸，用完就丢。本人特别贱，会在所有玩了很长时间的人面前诚惶诚恐：谢谢你们跟我这个物质条件（包括学历金钱社会地位等）完全不如你们的人玩。
因为智商低总觉得会被人嘲笑，犯错了会坦诚的承认因为我就是要强迫自己看那个字母我才能记住。你们都出过国查找资料信手拈来和我这个在哪都吃不开的弱智有什么关系。

It's sadness, I have difficulty memorizing words. The only way I can recognize them is to see them over and over again.
By the way.
I thought i always be that kind man.But maybe I am the mean one, and that would explain my social woes and my own cognitive problems that I can’t fix.

Goddess, anybody can tell me why am i become NOTHING?
I have done may things in my past life. BUT I FEEL I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.
Why can't I be a real bitch or something like that.
But the truth is I am socially challenged to a certain extent.
I'm useless, maybe.😭😭😭😭😭

So i choose to use English though it's not my mother tongue. I hate this world, and it's make me like a fucking illiteracy, stupid, dum whatever fucking. Just cause i didn't pass the fucking examination. And I'm truly a fucking illiteracy. Fuck this whole world.