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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3h

now i'm eating ice cream while all these nauseous feelings are slowly getting wiped away!

i truly, deeply love her🫶🏻 and i think i love myself too, i'm worthy of so much, and capable of sm growth and self-developpement, to the best ofc

esp i'm fighting for my own safety and fulfillment in everythin

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3h

puppygirl is happy because she had a very productive and comforting conversation with their partner<3

i feel sm better bc now that i targeted the problem, i can start healing with her support<3

now i want cuddles, but i crave spontaneity, and the end to feeling worthy only when i'm being used!

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

cw / hypersexuality, vent

why do i feel like the urge never stops? the more i'm depressed and the more my traumas torment me, the more i get the urge

also why do i feel sad that she doesn't hypersexualize me or exploit me, why does being "used" feels like home

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3h

puppygirl is happy because she had a very productive and comforting conversation with their partner<3

i feel sm better bc now that i targeted the problem, i can start healing with her support<3

now i want cuddles, but i crave spontaneity, and the end to feeling worthy only when i'm being used!

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

cw / hypersexuality, vent

why do i feel like the urge never stops? the more i'm depressed and the more my traumas torment me, the more i get the urge

also why do i feel sad that she doesn't hypersexualize me or exploit me, why does being "used" feels like home

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

but it's like "you have kinks? you're a bottom/sub? how about we do bdsm and we keep the role, but we do it the way that i want to do it bc idgaf about what you like!"

i truly hate everything i'm writting about the habit of being used it's awful but i just realized, can't keep it to myself

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

it's awful bc even if i'd love for it to happen, cuz i miss her and i miss our intimacy, + it's been a while since we've been together, i long for her to "use" me

and i'm really not into slave kink or anything, never that way, i'm actually power bottom and the brattiest sub ever

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

it's difficult bc it's either too little or too much, i either don't express it or i verbalize it way too much and make her uncomfy

like yea no, i don't want you to come to my house to have sex, but it's weird to me that you don't expect me to get naked for you right after crossing the door

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

now that's i can show my own desires, that it can be genuine, and not just someone telling me "hey! time to fuck!", or regular sex bc it's what they wanted,,, well it makes me almost feel bad?

i see that i don't know how to express my wishes, what i truly like, and when i want to do something

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

why does it lowkey feel like she doesn't want/care/love me bc she doesn't use me and treat me like a human being?

i have needs and i genuinely enjoy sex and my kinks are mine and only mine, but since middle school everyone who showed me love used me, even the non-abusive ones

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5h

cw / hypersexuality, vent

why do i feel like the urge never stops? the more i'm depressed and the more my traumas torment me, the more i get the urge

also why do i feel sad that she doesn't hypersexualize me or exploit me, why does being "used" feels like home

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 9h

IMISSHERRRRRRR i want my brain desactivated

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 9h

my dreams were just dreams 😔 (it was hot sesbian lex)

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 9h

super duper hyper -----

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 9h

super duper hyper -----

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 11h

trying to work for my uni exams but really just daydreaming about her 🧚🏻

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

tried multiple times to make her say it again but nahh didn't work

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

her warm whisper in my ear in class😧, she said "best girll..." and it's soooo comforting

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

her warm whisper in my ear in class😧, she said "best girll..." and it's soooo comforting

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

WHYY WHYYYY SHE DOESN'T WANT TO

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

:(

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

still no "good girl" or even just a little "best girl" in sight😔.... feels like crossing the desert without a single drop of water💔

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

OMG HER BLACK LIPSTICK WITH GOLDEN GLITTERZ

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 3d

i'm depressed so i'm horny so i'm even more depressed life's a cycle

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 5d

a tiktok inspired me and now all i want is to play with my dinosaur figures on her chest

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

still no "good girl" or even just a little "best girl" in sight😔.... feels like crossing the desert without a single drop of water💔

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🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

can't reach my vibrator tonight's old-fashioned 😩

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

so sexy i bit her arm, she dug her nails in my skin🥰

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

when she was sleeping on me between uni courses, my hand slipped away from her hip, the tiny groan she made trying to get my hand back where it belonged 🥺🥺

she couldn't stop falling asleeeep she looked like a kitten fighting sleep she's the cutest and they KNOW it😩😩😩😩🩷

nightime, miss her

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

it's the fact our bodies interlock perfectly like, the shape and size it's like two puzzle pieces finally reuniting everytime we start cuddling or when we nap on eachother🧚🏻

my head rest perfectly on top of her chest, right under her chin🩷🥰 feels like that's where it belongs

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

it's the fact our bodies interlock perfectly like, the shape and size it's like two puzzle pieces finally reuniting everytime we start cuddling or when we nap on eachother🧚🏻

my head rest perfectly on top of her chest, right under her chin🩷🥰 feels like that's where it belongs

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

tried to tickle her but she's sooo good at this game i can't ever win! i always end up being the one getting tickled 🥰🥰 not that i don't like it ofc

🌈ddnosaurs🩷 @cvntastic.bsky.social · 6d

also they're the sweetest angel ever, at some point i started panicking i almost cried bc of schoolwork yet it took her maybe 3 seconds to prevent it from happening😔🥀 she was so exhausted today bc of school she worried me sm i was super clingy in hope they'd feel better 😔🩷🩷🩷