I think I'm finally ready to move on from him. I'm tired of waiting and I need to focus on myself right now.

Update: still hate the dentist

Quick update. I got my CDA? And now I’m going to set up an appointment with an advisor at my local community college? I’m actually following through with the life goals I made last year? Shit is crazy, but my depression and anxiety are taking the backseat and I am thriving :)

I'm not going to lie. Seeing someone I care about a lot get to be a mom before I do makes me a little envious. I’m so happy for her; I can’t wait to be a great aunt. But, after working with kids and family having children, I want it for myself now more than ever.

I’m going to be a great aunt. Holy fucking shit.

I'm getting my car serviced at the dealership, and since it's just routine maintenance and will only be a little over an hour, I decided to just wait in the lounge area. Here's the thing: most people I follow or the algorithms I have curated are a bit nsfw. Very bored 😒

I have high expectations for the summer and, at the same time, low expectations. I still aim to attempt starting college in the fall, but I don't think it will happen. It's taking longer than I expected to finish my current goal. I wish my depression and ADHD didn't work so well together.

This is the closest I've gotten to actually doing it. The worst part is I had just started thinking about my future. Now, it doesn't matter how badly I wanted it. Somehow, the goalpost moved, and it feels too far away. Depression does awful fucked up things to your head.

I have mixed emotions about wanting to be in a relationship. On the one hand, I want to share my life with someone and always have them around(I can be clingy and obsessive unfortunately). But I have difficulty maintaining friendships because I prefer alone time(pretty sure I have the ‘tism).

I wish I stuck with Agents of Shield all those years ago. I started a complete MCU rewatch in chronological order and really am not looking forward to the shows. I could never get into them. But I have been pleasantly surprised by AOS, fairly predictable but still fun to watch :)

It really is unfortunate that I will always compare myself to her. I guess yet another sign of childhood trauma or whatever… I need therapy

Something I have started doing recently, not giving a shit and meaning it. I won't start something with someone, but I will not be taking bullshit from them. I will give the same energy back. Fuck you.

Well, tiktok is officially gone, I'm gonna miss booktok and biketok :(

This is such a weird relationship requirement, but I'm going to say it anyway. I want someone who will answer a question about me for me, even if I am capable of answering it myself. I want someone who knows me that well.

Lol I just realized I haven't posted here yet.
👋 Hello, I’m Dani. I won't post a lot, but I'm always around. I hope you have a good day :)