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🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

anyways, my day!

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

i let myself entertain terrible thoughts but im making him feel shit again, :) just not today!

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

i will stay quiet bc today is my bday, :)
but now that he said it? we are SO back to jumping out of this ship bc i doubt so much he actually gives that much fuck over it lol
midnight messages, hbday wishes can be veryy empty after all

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

its so goddammit clarifying though
“i like you and our ‘friendship’ a lot”, well, someone needs to explain what exactly a friendship entails

but thanks for the clarification, i will REALLY keep it in mind

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

its so goddammit clarifying though
“i like you and our ‘friendship’ a lot”, well, someone needs to explain what exactly a friendship entails

but thanks for the clarification, i will REALLY keep it in mind

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · 6h

yeah baby, surprise we failed again and he DID it again where he says something incredible stupid and makes you ask yourself why do u put yourself in this situation

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 11

im feeling terrible, like terribly teary, terribly brokenhearted, but also terribly relieved…

wtf am i doing w my life at this point…

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 11

im feeling terrible, like terribly teary, terribly brokenhearted, but also terribly relieved…

wtf am i doing w my life at this point…

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

im PEACEFULLY scrolling my ttk and this girl, opening her tarot deck, says “someone is upset w you bc they think u give up on them”

I FROZE LIKE WDYM

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🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

im digging my grave again, but its one last give in
i paved the… way, i think, and now its a matter of a last shovel, so i just need to prepare

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

it gave me the chills it did recently so i am doing ok
still, im twisting so much its FRGG bothersome
im almost sure this is what is fck my sleep

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

just… one last mercy, one last

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

im doing the frgging right thing ik
but still im feeling like my insides are all jelly and immabout to combust

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Sep 10

well, it seems like its working and im on the verge of anxiety

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Aug 29

its not like im not affected buut im also strangely feeling unattached to the situation, i cant explain

anyways, im rambling already

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Aug 29

it honestly surprises me for how long he wants to persist but really he does kinda live off adrenaline, even if he likes to pretend he doesnt

as fast as he realizes theres no fun or joy here, hes leaving and we’re finally done

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Aug 29

idc anymore, gonna do it for today and tomorrow we go back to normal

“thats manipulating,” i mean, yeah thats me making him realize things by his own

hes gonna come around it and thank me later, lord knows he needs it

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Aug 29

he asking if something happened between US

us who, dipshit? like, u clearly got used to the tenderness and now u missing having it freely, ohmgod

🌙 @dearzzdiary.bsky.social · Aug 29

urgh, im almost rolling my eyes bc i know im just pretending, it feels whole wrong to even say it

“u not calling me by pet names,” yeah? no shit sherlock, why would i do it?