Divine Disposition
@divinedisposition.bsky.social
Survivor of narcissistic abuse.
✍️Writer.
🤰🏻Mother.
🕵🏻♀️Truth-seeker.
I expose manipulation, break trauma cycles,
& help women reclaim identity through God, clarity, & courage.
✍️Writer.
🤰🏻Mother.
🕵🏻♀️Truth-seeker.
I expose manipulation, break trauma cycles,
& help women reclaim identity through God, clarity, & courage.
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If you have to adjust your tone, predict their moods, or silence your needs to keep the peace — that isn’t love, it’s emotional survival.
This is one of the first red flags of narcissistic abuse: walking on eggshells.
This is one of the first red flags of narcissistic abuse: walking on eggshells.
November 18, 2025 at 5:41 AM
If you have to adjust your tone, predict their moods, or silence your needs to keep the peace — that isn’t love, it’s emotional survival.
This is one of the first red flags of narcissistic abuse: walking on eggshells.
This is one of the first red flags of narcissistic abuse: walking on eggshells.
The Hidden Wounds
Narcissistic abuse doesn’t always leave bruises.
But it does leave:
✔️anxiety
✔️self-doubt
✔️hypervigilance
✔️spiritual exhaustion
✔️emotional numbness
✔️fear of being “too much”
✔️fear of being “not enough”
These wounds are real.
Narcissistic abuse doesn’t always leave bruises.
But it does leave:
✔️anxiety
✔️self-doubt
✔️hypervigilance
✔️spiritual exhaustion
✔️emotional numbness
✔️fear of being “too much”
✔️fear of being “not enough”
These wounds are real.
November 16, 2025 at 6:27 PM
The Hidden Wounds
Narcissistic abuse doesn’t always leave bruises.
But it does leave:
✔️anxiety
✔️self-doubt
✔️hypervigilance
✔️spiritual exhaustion
✔️emotional numbness
✔️fear of being “too much”
✔️fear of being “not enough”
These wounds are real.
Narcissistic abuse doesn’t always leave bruises.
But it does leave:
✔️anxiety
✔️self-doubt
✔️hypervigilance
✔️spiritual exhaustion
✔️emotional numbness
✔️fear of being “too much”
✔️fear of being “not enough”
These wounds are real.
The Body Remembers
Even when your mind forgets,
your body remembers every red flag.
Every silent treatment.
Every manipulation.
Every moment of chaos.
Healing reconnects the mind and body so they can work together again.
Even when your mind forgets,
your body remembers every red flag.
Every silent treatment.
Every manipulation.
Every moment of chaos.
Healing reconnects the mind and body so they can work together again.
November 16, 2025 at 6:18 PM
The Body Remembers
Even when your mind forgets,
your body remembers every red flag.
Every silent treatment.
Every manipulation.
Every moment of chaos.
Healing reconnects the mind and body so they can work together again.
Even when your mind forgets,
your body remembers every red flag.
Every silent treatment.
Every manipulation.
Every moment of chaos.
Healing reconnects the mind and body so they can work together again.
“Why Am I Still Thinking About Them?”
Because trauma bonds take time to break.
Your brain was trained to confuse intensity with intimacy.
You’re not going backwards — you’re detoxing.
Because trauma bonds take time to break.
Your brain was trained to confuse intensity with intimacy.
You’re not going backwards — you’re detoxing.
November 16, 2025 at 6:13 PM
“Why Am I Still Thinking About Them?”
Because trauma bonds take time to break.
Your brain was trained to confuse intensity with intimacy.
You’re not going backwards — you’re detoxing.
Because trauma bonds take time to break.
Your brain was trained to confuse intensity with intimacy.
You’re not going backwards — you’re detoxing.
Your Nervous System Isn’t Your Enemy
Your body isn’t overreacting —
it’s overprotecting.
Trauma trains your nervous system to stay on high alert.
Healing teaches it to rest again.
Your body isn’t overreacting —
it’s overprotecting.
Trauma trains your nervous system to stay on high alert.
Healing teaches it to rest again.
November 16, 2025 at 6:13 PM
Your Nervous System Isn’t Your Enemy
Your body isn’t overreacting —
it’s overprotecting.
Trauma trains your nervous system to stay on high alert.
Healing teaches it to rest again.
Your body isn’t overreacting —
it’s overprotecting.
Trauma trains your nervous system to stay on high alert.
Healing teaches it to rest again.
Some days you’ll feel strong.
Some days you’ll feel broken.
Some days you’ll feel nothing at all.
That’s not failure.
That’s trauma unwinding itself.
Some days you’ll feel broken.
Some days you’ll feel nothing at all.
That’s not failure.
That’s trauma unwinding itself.
November 16, 2025 at 6:12 PM
Some days you’ll feel strong.
Some days you’ll feel broken.
Some days you’ll feel nothing at all.
That’s not failure.
That’s trauma unwinding itself.
Some days you’ll feel broken.
Some days you’ll feel nothing at all.
That’s not failure.
That’s trauma unwinding itself.
I didn’t write Breaking Free from a healed mountaintop.
I wrote it from the battlefield.
The nights I questioned myself.
The days I felt invisible.
The moments I didn’t recognize who I had become.
I wrote it from the battlefield.
The nights I questioned myself.
The days I felt invisible.
The moments I didn’t recognize who I had become.
November 15, 2025 at 4:12 PM
I didn’t write Breaking Free from a healed mountaintop.
I wrote it from the battlefield.
The nights I questioned myself.
The days I felt invisible.
The moments I didn’t recognize who I had become.
I wrote it from the battlefield.
The nights I questioned myself.
The days I felt invisible.
The moments I didn’t recognize who I had become.
Healing begins the moment you stop apologizing for someone else’s behavior.
November 15, 2025 at 4:08 PM
Healing begins the moment you stop apologizing for someone else’s behavior.
You weren’t confused — you were conditioned.
November 15, 2025 at 4:08 PM
You weren’t confused — you were conditioned.
Trauma bonds feel like love because chaos was normalized.
November 15, 2025 at 4:07 PM
Trauma bonds feel like love because chaos was normalized.
A complete survivor’s guide for healing after narcissistic abuse. Includes a full trauma-informed PDF roadmap to help you break trauma bonds, rebuild identity, understand manipulation, and reclaim emotional, spiritual, and psychological freedom.
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Breaking Free: Healing, Awareness, & Empowerment After Narcissistic Abuse (PDF) - Divine Disposition | Desiree Jade's Ko-fi Shop
Breaking Free: Healing, Awareness, & Empowerment After Narcissistic Abuse is the complete guide I wish I had when I was drowning in emotional chaos, t...
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November 15, 2025 at 3:53 PM
A complete survivor’s guide for healing after narcissistic abuse. Includes a full trauma-informed PDF roadmap to help you break trauma bonds, rebuild identity, understand manipulation, and reclaim emotional, spiritual, and psychological freedom.
ko-fi.com/s/4947dd2c6c
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Silence protects abusers. I know because I stayed silent for years. I swallowed the lies, the manipulation, the betrayals, the blame-shifting. I told myself to “be loyal” — even when loyalty nearly killed me.
Loyalty means nothing when it’s chained to betrayal.
Loyalty means nothing when it’s chained to betrayal.
November 15, 2025 at 8:01 AM
Silence protects abusers. I know because I stayed silent for years. I swallowed the lies, the manipulation, the betrayals, the blame-shifting. I told myself to “be loyal” — even when loyalty nearly killed me.
Loyalty means nothing when it’s chained to betrayal.
Loyalty means nothing when it’s chained to betrayal.
Betrayal Disguised as Love
Some betrayals don’t come from strangers. They come from the person sleeping next to you, the one who says “I love you” while secretly dragging your name through the dirt. That’s not love. That’s sabotage.
Some betrayals don’t come from strangers. They come from the person sleeping next to you, the one who says “I love you” while secretly dragging your name through the dirt. That’s not love. That’s sabotage.
November 15, 2025 at 7:57 AM
Betrayal Disguised as Love
Some betrayals don’t come from strangers. They come from the person sleeping next to you, the one who says “I love you” while secretly dragging your name through the dirt. That’s not love. That’s sabotage.
Some betrayals don’t come from strangers. They come from the person sleeping next to you, the one who says “I love you” while secretly dragging your name through the dirt. That’s not love. That’s sabotage.
I’d rather be called “difficult” for speaking truth than destroyed by pretending it’s not happening.
November 15, 2025 at 7:54 AM
I’d rather be called “difficult” for speaking truth than destroyed by pretending it’s not happening.
Abuse doesn’t just take your trust. It takes your confidence. It wears you down until you don’t recognize the woman/man in the mirror. Loyal, faithful, strong — and yet hollowed out by betrayal and manipulation.
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3
November 15, 2025 at 7:50 AM
Abuse doesn’t just take your trust. It takes your confidence. It wears you down until you don’t recognize the woman/man in the mirror. Loyal, faithful, strong — and yet hollowed out by betrayal and manipulation.
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3
“Each of us will give an account of ourselves to God.” — Romans 14:12
November 15, 2025 at 7:46 AM
“Each of us will give an account of ourselves to God.” — Romans 14:12
Abusers love to flip the script. I’ve been told I’m “never satisfied.” That I’m “trying to find a way out.” That I make him feel like he’s “not enough.”
Not because I’m impossible to please, but because they’ve chosen to keep breaking trust. “Not enough” isn’t my accusation — it’s his confession.
Not because I’m impossible to please, but because they’ve chosen to keep breaking trust. “Not enough” isn’t my accusation — it’s his confession.
November 15, 2025 at 7:45 AM
Abusers love to flip the script. I’ve been told I’m “never satisfied.” That I’m “trying to find a way out.” That I make him feel like he’s “not enough.”
Not because I’m impossible to please, but because they’ve chosen to keep breaking trust. “Not enough” isn’t my accusation — it’s his confession.
Not because I’m impossible to please, but because they’ve chosen to keep breaking trust. “Not enough” isn’t my accusation — it’s his confession.
When they say “stop living in the past,” what they really mean is “stop remembering the truth.”
November 15, 2025 at 7:43 AM
When they say “stop living in the past,” what they really mean is “stop remembering the truth.”
If you’re always the villain in their story — it’s because they’re afraid of being exposed as the villain in reality.
November 15, 2025 at 7:43 AM
If you’re always the villain in their story — it’s because they’re afraid of being exposed as the villain in reality.
Gaslighting isn’t confusion. It’s strategy.
They lie, twist, deny, and then blame you for noticing.
👉 That’s not love. That’s abuse.
They lie, twist, deny, and then blame you for noticing.
👉 That’s not love. That’s abuse.
November 15, 2025 at 7:42 AM
Gaslighting isn’t confusion. It’s strategy.
They lie, twist, deny, and then blame you for noticing.
👉 That’s not love. That’s abuse.
They lie, twist, deny, and then blame you for noticing.
👉 That’s not love. That’s abuse.
Every time I uncovered the truth, I was told I was “digging.” That’s how abusers keep control — by making you feel guilty for noticing reality.
If there was nothing hidden, there’d be nothing to find.
“The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in people who are trustworthy.” — Proverbs 12:22
If there was nothing hidden, there’d be nothing to find.
“The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in people who are trustworthy.” — Proverbs 12:22
November 15, 2025 at 7:40 AM
Every time I uncovered the truth, I was told I was “digging.” That’s how abusers keep control — by making you feel guilty for noticing reality.
If there was nothing hidden, there’d be nothing to find.
“The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in people who are trustworthy.” — Proverbs 12:22
If there was nothing hidden, there’d be nothing to find.
“The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in people who are trustworthy.” — Proverbs 12:22