DrawKill
@drawkill.bsky.social
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Somewhere between the living and the death. Die Wonder: Hiatus | Commissions: Closed
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Me out here waiting until I don't have to pay 90+ Canadaian buckaroos to play any of these new silents hills. 🧍

I watched some friends play a little bit of it though, looks pretty good from what I've seen.
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Heheh, glad you enjoy my designs. I really do need to get back into it. Slowly but surely I suppose. And this sketch be lookin' really nice! You have a lovely style. ☺️
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Probably for the best tbh. 😩
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Sometimes I want to post on twitter again but then realize I'd have to pay for anyone to actually see my posts and also have to witness grown adults screaming at video game companies just cause indiana jones said a thing they didn't like and I'm just...

...man, I miss the old internet. 🫩
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Life hack: adding cheese and japanese mayo to mashed potatoes no longer makes them the blandest thing known to life.
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That does actually help motivate me, thank u. Am always glad to hear that people like my comic! 🥺💜
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I just... Gotta remember how to pick up a pencil again.
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I gotta do it for Tsuki.
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Sometimes I still get little sparks of inspiration for it, I remember how much it means to me.
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I still want to finish that final chapter, for the first arc in Die Wonder.

Even if I might not be able to keep making anymore then that... I think I'd at least be satified that I got to finish one part.
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Wild to see people still using my tumblr tutorial a decade later. 😳 Turned out nice!
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Unfortunate to hear you're suffering with this as well. 😔
Thank, hopefully we can both defeat it sometime soon.
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Anyway, I'm trying to come back, I just don't know when that will be.

I think about y'all a lot, and I miss drawing, posting my art, getting to interact with everyone about OCs or video games or whatever random shenanigans I get up to... I always was an internet kid, she's still in there somewhere.
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I've been trying to work on it. That and my other ailments. I've gotten so desperate there are things I never thought I'd have attempted in my life, but here I am forcing myself past fears and becoming my very own lab rat.

I guess I still have determination going for me, so I'm not all gone.
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I won't lie, I struggle with opening up, or at least anything outside of jokes or my usual abstract angst posts. But I know a lot of you have been sending me messages, wondering where I've been over the past year, so this is where I am unfortunately.
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If anyone's been wondering why I randomly disappeared. It's because COVID likely gave me anhedonia.

I don't really feel any passion or joy anymore, including towards my art. I don't even want to socialize, but I try to still force myself to, for the sake of my friends, family and my own well being.
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Life really throws you down directions you never thought you'd go.

Then you're just left standing there... wondering where you went.
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This is so good, I am seeing the vision.
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The strong desire to destroy and annihilate if someone makes too loud of a sound when you're over stimulated. 😃
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If anyone was wondering why I barely draw anymore or why my comics been on hiatus for years, this be why.
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I've learned a lot about science and biology. But I'd rly like to go back to just caring about my OCs and art again. 😩
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Hoping once I finally find something that can reliably help my ailments, I will finally draw more frequent again. It's been real mad scientist hours on my body the past few years.
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Insane how much better I feel already. 🤔

Luckily I have a theory that a certain med might work that has a similar mechanism and maybe won't give me a rash.
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Creatine suppliment.
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I took it again anyway but half the dose. Pray for me. I am desperate. 💀