❝ 𝗔𝗽𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝗶𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝑩𝑶𝑹𝑵 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑳𝑫。❞

i will rot in this room forever. i have never been beautiful.

i'm a murderer, but! i have principles.

there's a sickness inside me. i can feel it swirl in my lungs, feel it lick my ribs on the way to fill my heart. i don't think it will ever go away.

my rot is as hungry as me. and when god asks me about love, i always respond with cruelty. i know no other answer. yes, love can be the violence.

my love is sick. it leaks and bleeds all over me, onto my nicest shirt.

inside me, something seethes.

don't feel guilty for your anger. you look beautiful with a glare and sharp teeth.

EVERY HAND THAT FEEDS IS BITTEN IF IT STEALS FROM HUNGRY MOUTHS.

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↑ should learn to trust the process & let things unfold naturally?

.. much like a cat;
his incessant curiosity
will be his downfall .

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↑ when he tries to dig deeper into the ‘why’ of that particular situation, it's as if he is hitting roadblock that takes the form of the words :

" all is calm.
⠀⠀⠀⠀all is well.
⠀⠀⠀all is fine.
⠀⠀⠀⠀all is just
⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀as it should be.. "

perhaps he ↓
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↑ the variables he has uncovered- if no ending is in sight for that particular path of testing , he will keep experimenting .

the whispering has been oddly quiet today- too quiet , in his opinion . the lure not as potent & that shifts his mindset entirely.
how odd.. ↓

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↑ to do is focus on the adverse effects of his personal experiments - he /needs/ to focus on the healing process ; without that particular aspect , there's no use in continuing with it .. so he'll sit , he'll ponder , he'll try to find any sort of correlation between ↓

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tentative steps can be heard outside of his lab —
this is the first time he has left it in two days ; sleep comes & goes for him , his own personal brand of research is backfiring in the worst way possible . a pause will be taken on that .

as of now ,
what he needs ↓

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『 We think that the flower on the precipice is 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭. 』

Independent, selective portrayal of Aizen Sousuke from Bleach. All timelines, with the main one being around Fake Karakura Town.

— #BLEACHRP

MDNI. High literacy and canon portrayals preferred.

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#𝐒𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐘 ~ ♡ˎˊ˗

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"A man's 𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 is really 𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 in comparison to a woman's.

It's 𝚗𝚘𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 as lustful.

Rather, it's unbearably 𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓸𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰."

[ #SwordSunday]

#AshisogiJizo

/ My activity in this entire sentence …

i am grateful for it all; the agony of reinvention, the bliss of becoming.