Blockland was the first PC game I ever played and the first time I heard the “Portal music”, but a lot of that stuff has been gutted out now and I can’t experience the Blockland I used to even if I want to, oh well
A lot of zillennials have physical memories of being in certain places in games, it’s not an exaggeration to say I remember things “in games“ too, like what I was playing or looking forward to that year. I miss the ambiance of Blockland Bedroom, being 14 probably did a lot of the heavy lifting too 🥹
Thinking too much again *BONK* it doesn’t matter, let’s nip this in the bud before I get too outspoken about shit that doesn’t really matter again, my conclusions are always irrational and overemotional anyway
I hate the way that so many people on social media don’t even register as people to me, you are an AI bot spat out by an algorithm to mine Bitcoins, you aren’t a real person and you don’t have opinions, shut up and get off my feed. I can’t believe the internet was ruined by one guy, but it happened.
People like this wouldn’t even be able to tell you a single thing they personally like about Kojima’s games either. They might stumble out something like “c-cuz Kojima… Solid Snake… so deep!!”, I hate AAA gaming, I hate mainstream entertainment and the way people talk about it
Who else needs to be able to say “I FUCKIN’ HATE YOU!” and not have it held against them, actually it’s forgotten about already and didn’t happen. It’s a big ask. Are you up to the challenge?
I wrote shit-gremlin in an earlier post but I wish I wrote piss-gremlin instead cuz that’s funnier, who else is a piss-gremlin (adult child in need of babying), who else needs the burden of responsibility taken from them 😮💨
That was followed by another dream where Keanu Reeves came to pick me up in his car and was unconditionally nice to me the entire time but it sucked cuz eventually we were in a bus with hundreds of other people and he wasn’t “mine” anymore, I notice an ongoing theme of paternal care here
Had a fucked up dream I had backstage access to hang out with Linkin Park but I didn’t know any of their new material so it was really awkward and I “let it get to me“ as I am known to do, someone took me home in their car
Galerians is exactly the kinda thing 90s game reviewers would be like “ahhh it’s so weird and Japanese and I hate it, I hate little sensitive twinkie boys who wear dog collars and scream a lot“, they don’t appreciate art
I think the dream of everyone with abandonment issues is to be taken care of, to find someone who can see you from the top-down, know when you're acting out or being “too much” but forgive you and not hold it against you anyway. You want to be an imperfect shit-gremlin laying in the arms of an angel
I just wrote the bitchiest, vagueblog-ass thing and I’m laughing my lmfao 😹😹 I’ll keep it in the drafts cuz it’s funny, I came into my mean girl phase too late and it’s just sad now 👎
If I do that now ppl get sick of talking to me, the main thing is no one bounces off the negativity like they did & it was this fun secret club where we’re the smarties & everyone else is a dummy who doesn’t *get it* & we never tried to contradict each other, not that we didn’t consider other POVs
I love outcasts, I love sad little weirdos like me. My best friends as a kid were gender dysphoric egg gays. I miss my best friend with whom‘st I could be as toxic as I liked and bitch-on how “everything sucks now”, and they resonated with it and we matched each other’s energy. Miss you bestie 💔
I came up with something while I was falling asleep the other night. “All the beautiful kids play together, while I play by myself & with the other kids who play alone.” Beautiful! 😻
No man in my life ever tried to help me, had my friend’s dad calling me a white slug behind my back. There was an older guy who tried to school me in college, but he was racked with cynicism, and the vision of life he painted for me was something like “work your ass off & be happy alone”… inspiring!
