LIVING DURGE GIRL
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okay i think something is happening to me
Aside from the usual “I’m probably in hell and my life is a punishment for something I have already done or will do in the future” there’s just no point to it other than making me want to kms and I won’t do that anyway so there’s double no point. It’s just stupid
Also there’s no point in it and as much as I love doing things for no point literally nothing will come out of it that I won’t have to dig myself out of again later and all my slots for issues that are doing that are full already
Ngl I can never fully tap in to the self loathing stuff because I still just don’t feel like me. I’m barely a person my body isn’t mine why would I even do that
November 11, 2025 at 3:32 PM
Aside from the usual “I’m probably in hell and my life is a punishment for something I have already done or will do in the future” there’s just no point to it other than making me want to kms and I won’t do that anyway so there’s double no point. It’s just stupid
Also there’s no point in it and as much as I love doing things for no point literally nothing will come out of it that I won’t have to dig myself out of again later and all my slots for issues that are doing that are full already
Ngl I can never fully tap in to the self loathing stuff because I still just don’t feel like me. I’m barely a person my body isn’t mine why would I even do that
November 11, 2025 at 1:13 PM
Also there’s no point in it and as much as I love doing things for no point literally nothing will come out of it that I won’t have to dig myself out of again later and all my slots for issues that are doing that are full already
>wake up
>already pissed off
Great
>already pissed off
Great
November 11, 2025 at 12:54 PM
>wake up
>already pissed off
Great
>already pissed off
Great
Ngl I can never fully tap in to the self loathing stuff because I still just don’t feel like me. I’m barely a person my body isn’t mine why would I even do that
November 11, 2025 at 12:51 PM
Ngl I can never fully tap in to the self loathing stuff because I still just don’t feel like me. I’m barely a person my body isn’t mine why would I even do that
Okay faggot
Never mind I’m fine as hell actually oh my god
I look kinda ugly but I'm impassive to that because I really would prefer if no one ever looked at me and saw a future of any kind
November 11, 2025 at 12:49 PM
Okay faggot
Never mind I’m fine as hell actually oh my god
I look kinda ugly but I'm impassive to that because I really would prefer if no one ever looked at me and saw a future of any kind
eyebags are worse. pale as shit because there's no sun. look weird in general. the list goes on
November 11, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Never mind I’m fine as hell actually oh my god
Boy you can’t name yourself Derlord. Shut up
Being transgender and autistic is so stupid why do I want to steal the name of any character I really enjoy and why are their names always objectively really really dumb
November 11, 2025 at 2:27 AM
Boy you can’t name yourself Derlord. Shut up
Okay I'm starting to think it might also be interlocked with the autism. a lot. it's still really funny and I still enjoy feeling better than others about it. but I DO feel like a hollow shell that's forced to be a spectator to things I'll never understand forever
I'm sure there's some deep rooted reason to why I feel like this in addition to just being aromantic but I don't care. it's really funny to me and I enjoy feeling better than others
It's just such an gross thing. And everyone is so entitled about it. Awful self imposed connection to someone that makes no sense to exist if not to just act as a prerequisite to sex. What's the point
November 11, 2025 at 12:14 AM
Okay I'm starting to think it might also be interlocked with the autism. a lot. it's still really funny and I still enjoy feeling better than others about it. but I DO feel like a hollow shell that's forced to be a spectator to things I'll never understand forever
this was funny
My counselor passively said that my suspected autism came with "black and white thinking" and I was so confused in the moment but then I went home and continued thinking about how righteous and fundamentally good my dad dying would be and it clicked
November 11, 2025 at 12:12 AM
this was funny
Being transgender and autistic is so stupid why do I want to steal the name of any character I really enjoy and why are their names always objectively really really dumb
November 10, 2025 at 11:48 PM
Being transgender and autistic is so stupid why do I want to steal the name of any character I really enjoy and why are their names always objectively really really dumb
Reposted by LIVING DURGE GIRL
they should hire me out for those outdoor escape rooms where you get chased by zombies.
I look like a corpse again. probably my own fault but wow
November 10, 2025 at 10:04 PM
they should hire me out for those outdoor escape rooms where you get chased by zombies.
"he gave an impression of deformity without any nameable malformation" that's because his insides were rotten. and so are mine 🤩👀
November 10, 2025 at 10:03 PM
"he gave an impression of deformity without any nameable malformation" that's because his insides were rotten. and so are mine 🤩👀
Romance is inherently evil and telling of an ignored parasitic nature in humans, in this essay I will
I look kinda ugly but I'm impassive to that because I really would prefer if no one ever looked at me and saw a future of any kind
eyebags are worse. pale as shit because there's no sun. look weird in general. the list goes on
November 10, 2025 at 10:00 PM
Romance is inherently evil and telling of an ignored parasitic nature in humans, in this essay I will
I look kinda ugly but I'm impassive to that because I really would prefer if no one ever looked at me and saw a future of any kind
eyebags are worse. pale as shit because there's no sun. look weird in general. the list goes on
November 10, 2025 at 9:59 PM
I look kinda ugly but I'm impassive to that because I really would prefer if no one ever looked at me and saw a future of any kind
oh my god
a man wearing headphones and a blue hoodie with an adidas logo
ALT: a man wearing headphones and a blue hoodie with an adidas logo
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November 10, 2025 at 9:58 PM
oh my god
I look like a corpse again. probably my own fault but wow
November 10, 2025 at 9:55 PM
I look like a corpse again. probably my own fault but wow
I think I had a dream my dad was dying and I had to delete a bunch of shit I said because I was paranoid they were gonna think I did it
November 10, 2025 at 2:22 PM
I think I had a dream my dad was dying and I had to delete a bunch of shit I said because I was paranoid they were gonna think I did it
Nothing ruins my day like my dad being around in general
November 10, 2025 at 2:22 PM
Nothing ruins my day like my dad being around in general
why is my name i forgot
November 10, 2025 at 4:04 AM
why is my name i forgot
okay i think something is happening to me
November 10, 2025 at 4:04 AM
okay i think something is happening to me
what the fuck am I doing it's been 3 months and I'm still on this
Realising how much I talk to myself dude. I was just having a whole conversation. Hand gestures and all
November 10, 2025 at 2:36 AM
what the fuck am I doing it's been 3 months and I'm still on this