@helliness.bsky.social
Just a little artist's diary
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Art profile: @mintarin.bsky.social
She/her 🟆 23
Art profile: @mintarin.bsky.social
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Hi. I'm not sure if I should have made an account, but my mental state needs a place where I can share my feelings and so here I am.
Please leave if you are triggered by things like depression, loss of loved ones, PTSD and similar topics. Thank you 🩵
Please leave if you are triggered by things like depression, loss of loved ones, PTSD and similar topics. Thank you 🩵
I increased my antidepressant dose and for the third day I've been shaking with anxiety and muscle tension and can't do anything. The doctor said to be patient and that it could last up to two weeks. It's exhausting T.T
November 9, 2025 at 11:54 AM
I increased my antidepressant dose and for the third day I've been shaking with anxiety and muscle tension and can't do anything. The doctor said to be patient and that it could last up to two weeks. It's exhausting T.T
Hello, dear ones
I haven't written anything for a long time because something was going on inside me that I couldn't put into words. But now I can. I am completely exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically. My “battery” is below zero, my anxiety has reached a critical point, and I've broken down.
I haven't written anything for a long time because something was going on inside me that I couldn't put into words. But now I can. I am completely exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically. My “battery” is below zero, my anxiety has reached a critical point, and I've broken down.
October 31, 2025 at 3:01 PM
Hello, dear ones
I haven't written anything for a long time because something was going on inside me that I couldn't put into words. But now I can. I am completely exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically. My “battery” is below zero, my anxiety has reached a critical point, and I've broken down.
I haven't written anything for a long time because something was going on inside me that I couldn't put into words. But now I can. I am completely exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, physically. My “battery” is below zero, my anxiety has reached a critical point, and I've broken down.
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Just a small burnt bun in flour. My husband tried baking bread himself and spilled a bit of flour, huh
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
September 29, 2025 at 8:28 PM
Just a small burnt bun in flour. My husband tried baking bread himself and spilled a bit of flour, huh
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
Also, the streets are already covered in snow with knee-high drifts. It looks so beautiful, like a quiet winter dream
My husband is feeling a bit better now and needs fewer painkillers, which is good 💖 But my mental health has taken a hit - too much stress has worsened my anxiety disorder. I’m focusing on resting and taking care of myself. As soon as I can, I plan to see my therapist and get medication.
September 29, 2025 at 8:23 PM
My husband is feeling a bit better now and needs fewer painkillers, which is good 💖 But my mental health has taken a hit - too much stress has worsened my anxiety disorder. I’m focusing on resting and taking care of myself. As soon as I can, I plan to see my therapist and get medication.
Today my husband had an MRI, and it showed that he has a large hernia in one place and a protrusion in another. The sciatic nerve is severely pinched, which is bad because it could die (I mean the nerve, yes)
September 17, 2025 at 9:43 PM
Today my husband had an MRI, and it showed that he has a large hernia in one place and a protrusion in another. The sciatic nerve is severely pinched, which is bad because it could die (I mean the nerve, yes)
I feel terrible asking for help again. I'm used to dealing with everything myself, but this year and its events have been just awful.
I don't know what to do... I'm desperate. My graphics tablet suddenly stopped working just as I sat down to work. My husband is still very ill and unable to work. I know I've already asked for help, but I really need help... again. I'm sorry.
September 13, 2025 at 9:50 PM
I feel terrible asking for help again. I'm used to dealing with everything myself, but this year and its events have been just awful.
But I negotiated with the bank about one of my loans and it seems that I am no longer facing legal action for late payment... Adult life is totally sucks.
(Sorry if there are mistakes and inappropriate words in my posts, I don't have the energy to double-check my translator)
(Sorry if there are mistakes and inappropriate words in my posts, I don't have the energy to double-check my translator)
September 9, 2025 at 1:56 PM
But I negotiated with the bank about one of my loans and it seems that I am no longer facing legal action for late payment... Adult life is totally sucks.
(Sorry if there are mistakes and inappropriate words in my posts, I don't have the energy to double-check my translator)
(Sorry if there are mistakes and inappropriate words in my posts, I don't have the energy to double-check my translator)
All these days I've been running around with my husband to doctors, with no time for anything else. They scared me that it could be venous thrombosis, so we spent even more money on an ultrasound scan of the veins to rule out this diagnosis.
September 9, 2025 at 1:53 PM
All these days I've been running around with my husband to doctors, with no time for anything else. They scared me that it could be venous thrombosis, so we spent even more money on an ultrasound scan of the veins to rule out this diagnosis.
My husband felt pain in his leg at the beginning of last month and went to the emergency room. He was prescribed injections and told to wait for an appointment with a therapist - his appointment was on the 28th.
September 1, 2025 at 1:17 PM
My husband felt pain in his leg at the beginning of last month and went to the emergency room. He was prescribed injections and told to wait for an appointment with a therapist - his appointment was on the 28th.
To be honest, I feel very guilty about having to ask for help so often... But this dark period in my life is not ending.
Hi, dears :<
My husband has serious health problems, and most of our money goes toward his treatment. I would be very grateful if you would support me
I will be making more new YCHs in the near future, and you may be interested in chibi for $40
Cmm info: mintarin.carrd.co#p
My husband has serious health problems, and most of our money goes toward his treatment. I would be very grateful if you would support me
I will be making more new YCHs in the near future, and you may be interested in chibi for $40
Cmm info: mintarin.carrd.co#p
September 1, 2025 at 1:05 PM
To be honest, I feel very guilty about having to ask for help so often... But this dark period in my life is not ending.
Hungry VS ate dumplings :D
August 24, 2025 at 8:21 PM
Hungry VS ate dumplings :D
I'm trying to pay off all my debts for drawings as soon as possible, drawing 14 hours a day and drinking tons of cold coffee. I'm a little burnt out, but I feel really bad that I'm making my clients wait, so... work work work
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
August 19, 2025 at 8:09 PM
I'm trying to pay off all my debts for drawings as soon as possible, drawing 14 hours a day and drinking tons of cold coffee. I'm a little burnt out, but I feel really bad that I'm making my clients wait, so... work work work
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
A piece of a sketch for a future full shading illustration 💖
Today, my husband and I went to the hospital, and it turned out that he has a severe sciatic nerve pinching... He will need three injections a day and it looks like long trips to the hospital, because the appointment with the therapist is only on the 28th...
August 19, 2025 at 7:59 PM
Today, my husband and I went to the hospital, and it turned out that he has a severe sciatic nerve pinching... He will need three injections a day and it looks like long trips to the hospital, because the appointment with the therapist is only on the 28th...
I'm resting today too, I think I'm going to spend a lot of time at Infinity Nikki and maybe some more sketching on paper. My hands are really shaky, need to get the skill back! ❤️
July 30, 2025 at 6:39 AM
I'm resting today too, I think I'm going to spend a lot of time at Infinity Nikki and maybe some more sketching on paper. My hands are really shaky, need to get the skill back! ❤️
Had a weekend off yesterday and today, picked up some painting materials and tried them out, it's incredibly relaxing. I've missed it.
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
July 30, 2025 at 6:35 AM
Had a weekend off yesterday and today, picked up some painting materials and tried them out, it's incredibly relaxing. I've missed it.
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
Drawing still in progress, waiting for the glitter paints to arrive - my work just has to glitter ;3
I drew for 16 hours today
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
July 28, 2025 at 6:44 PM
I drew for 16 hours today
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
I'm tired of being tired of being tired
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July 28, 2025 at 5:46 PM
Lately I've been worrying quite a bit about whether I'm drawing well and feeling guilty about doing it slowly. I feel like I'm not painting beautifully enough right now...
Maybe I'm just really tired, but I still have a lot of work to do... meh.
Maybe I'm just really tired, but I still have a lot of work to do... meh.
July 28, 2025 at 5:56 PM
Lately I've been worrying quite a bit about whether I'm drawing well and feeling guilty about doing it slowly. I feel like I'm not painting beautifully enough right now...
Maybe I'm just really tired, but I still have a lot of work to do... meh.
Maybe I'm just really tired, but I still have a lot of work to do... meh.
I had a little treat today с;
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
July 25, 2025 at 3:05 PM
I had a little treat today с;
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
I got lucky and got the keychain I wanted 🥹💖
Today is two years since my mom died. To be honest, it's still very hard for me.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
July 22, 2025 at 6:26 PM
Today is two years since my mom died. To be honest, it's still very hard for me.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
But I hope she met my dad and she doesn't have any more pain and she is happy there and they are taking care of me from heaven.
I love you, mom.
Today I ordered canvases and paints for myself to draw on. I haven't even picked up a pencil in almost 7 years, so I'm so excited! С;
July 21, 2025 at 1:09 AM
Today I ordered canvases and paints for myself to draw on. I haven't even picked up a pencil in almost 7 years, so I'm so excited! С;
