endangered plant rat
@houseplantrat.bsky.social
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× whining about my disabled life × 21 || any pronouns really || ENG/PT || frustrated artist rat mid support needs audhd, fibro, ME/CFS, POTS, hypermobility and more help me get a mobility aid, comission my art or donate: https://ko-fi.com/thehouseplant
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HELP ME AFFORD A #MOBILITYAID

I'm #disabled, unemployed and need a rollator, trying to raise money to get one.

Family is very unsupportive and the little money I still have goes for medications, which are very expensive.

Donate or commission!

ko-fi.com/thehouseplan...

#disabledsky #disability
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instead of judging, politely ask if they are entitled to priority seating or perhaps feeling unwell

more often than not, people won't give up their seat (even with priority passengers around) unless you ask them to, or explain politely why they're there

no need to be an ass
being disabled sucks, I often resent it, but um not ashamed of it

I wish to live in a world where being disabled sucks less and these people should too
my go-to response is:
"no, I'm actually not ashamed at all to be disabled and use my rights, but maybe you should be kinder and ask people instead of assuming anything about them, then feeling entitled to their actions"
I have a lanyard and a card on me stating I'm disabled and get to use priority seating, and yet I still have to stand disgusted looks, people loudly talking about me and people coming at me to say I'm wrong, being disrespectful, that I should be ashamed
I wonder if some older folks got so flabbergasted that growing old impacted their bodies so much that when they see a young person they can't even phantom they could be disabled
if you ask an axolotl
if he'll be back tomorrow
a penguin waddles in and then the axolotl's gone
autism is unstoppable

I just got done replicating a phone case that appears twice very briefly in my favorite series
Disabled people are at greater risk of ending their lives.
I'm lucky to live in a country with free healthcare care. Even if it's not always the best.
And yet, most of my medications are not available for free or lower prices.
I wonder if I'll ever have to choose between paying for food and paying for my medication. Both vital for my survival and wellbeing.
I'm disabled.
My disabilities greatly affect my ability to work.
Most disabled people are unemployed or underemployed.
My medication to manage those disabilities, is very expensive.
I have many bills other than my medication, living is very expensive.
can't sleep because my ankles hurt
today's unsurprising and old lesson: don't overestimate your body or underestimate PEM + pain

it'll go *horribly bad* and you'll only award debilitated days
if anyone tells me I'm being too influenced by my special interest in heartbreak high, I'll deny it while holding my handcrafted replica of a characters phone case
I've never done anything with my hair, liked accessories or cared for makeup bc it's overstimulating and time consuming (plus social pressure made me spiteful about it)

only sometimes I feel like doing something, but bc I never do, I feel sorta humiliated to try??? terrified to have someone notice
how to be bubbly and colorful when you've only been dark and basic your whole life

I want to go out with stars stuck to my face but I'm too much of a coward for that
feelings feel like an amorphous big blob of mixed content, how on earth does one turn this into speech????
I feel like I can have an almost impeccable vocabulary while also not being able to formulate discourse quick or easily at all, to convey my thoughts into speech

but people seem to think the latter is untrue/not believable exactly because I have good vocabulary
I believe being autistic makes communication so hard because words and meanings always seem scrambled in my brain, it's frustrating and confusing
I really despise chronic fatigue and feel like people don't really understand it

"but you haven't done anything to be tired"

I KNOW, that's the very problem, I WISH I could do something
saying "doesn't look like you want it because I don't see the change, you're just about words" doesn't make my wishes (expressed through words) false, just goes to show I have limitations even at trying to get better, and that getting better is not quick nor linear

wanting won't make it hurt less
"You said you were doing something about it. I didn't see a change"

I want to improve my health and perform more and better, be more present for loved ones

that doesn't mean I can give people a date of when it'll come because my body has to be able to take it

still, doesn't mean I don't wish to
"maybe you just don't like me that much"

my body may not take certain activities even if I still want to do them, but sometimes I just can't, or not well at least

it's not about liking someone less, it's about limitations that are clearly not being taken into account even if it was said they were
"you look like you don't really enjoy it"

I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't enjoy it, but I still get frustrated and upset with the previously stated pain
when a disabled person says "this hurts and fatigues me", it's quite weird to get upset that you set your expectations they were gonna be able to enthusiastically (maybe just a little less than an non-disabled person would) do it and continuously didn't manage to (yes, even if they really wanted to)