I am having a very triggering weekend and I knew Spencer was a bad idea and tbh it was!!!!!!!!! Like I’m fine I don’t regret it bc he’s cute and fun but I overall very triggered !!!!!! Why did we talk about exes and shit omg 🥲
I need my mountain man bc I need him to give me his professional massage!!!! That shit legit cured my migraine/back of the head tension bullshit I always have. It was like magic. If I could have him once a week I think all my physical ailments would be cured. Why does he live in the woods !!!!!
The thing that’s funny is I don’t want a fucking talking phase like I will meet up immediately but they are being too forward about not wanting a talking phase in a way that’s a huge turn off like calm down dude lol
Are they just eager for a younger woman or I think they’re just fresh out of unhappy marriages and want immediate affection and don’t want a taking phase - like this is literally what they have said.
I liked being up early when I lived with Chris bc I’d get hrs to myself in the morning with the cats but now it’s just too much time in the day like I got my groceries and chores done and it’s fucking 9:30 now what
At least this is what I tell myself!!!!!! I am proud of myself I guess!!!!!!!! I am actually making good decisions and trying to be super aware of how I’m exploring this new phase of my life. Literally everything is potentially dangerous to me. Anything that feels good could be a drug to me lol
I really am saying no to things that might be bad for me especially when I’m feeling triggered bc sobriety really is the love of my life and I keep putting her first and it makes me stronger and stronger !!!!!!!
It’s not terrible like it was in my 20’s but it’s bad. I need to put this filter on my shower head and just go back to my normal routine. Slut era is a terrible time to have acne on my chin :(
skin hasn’t been the same since I moved out and I’ve been using acne products bc of it and I know the purging is a thing but like I’d rather just not have breakouts lol. And now my skin is irritated on top of the acne. I need to just go back to my gentle cleansers.
