Ivy McClaire
@ivysmemoirs.bsky.social
She/They | English Lit Failure | Former Guitarist for The Rocket Girls | Haven Hills, WV | Novice Scholar of Magick | Documenting stuff here https://youtube.com/@ivysmemoirs?si=7i2ryHIOZdb9vhWH
Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been rebuilding my relationship with Avery and doing therapy with Serena. Slowly but surely despite everything feeling like it's against me and Chernabogs presence, I've been doing better. I've been filming here and there, nothing that constitutes a vid though.
October 15, 2025 at 3:04 PM
Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been rebuilding my relationship with Avery and doing therapy with Serena. Slowly but surely despite everything feeling like it's against me and Chernabogs presence, I've been doing better. I've been filming here and there, nothing that constitutes a vid though.
Changed my banner, it reminded me of Avis, I'd rather not think of her right now. I'm happy and I don't want that streak to stop. I've been given the opportunity to rest and enjoy life. I have no idea when I'm going to leave again, the CoTWE has yet to tell me anything about that timey wimey shit.
September 1, 2025 at 10:02 PM
Changed my banner, it reminded me of Avis, I'd rather not think of her right now. I'm happy and I don't want that streak to stop. I've been given the opportunity to rest and enjoy life. I have no idea when I'm going to leave again, the CoTWE has yet to tell me anything about that timey wimey shit.
@redredhat.bsky.social thanks for getting me in touch with Serena. She's been absolutely lovely with getting me ready for future sessions. It's a nice change of pace to have a therapist who can actually listen to me and doesn't see me as unhinged. Lol
September 1, 2025 at 8:20 PM
@redredhat.bsky.social thanks for getting me in touch with Serena. She's been absolutely lovely with getting me ready for future sessions. It's a nice change of pace to have a therapist who can actually listen to me and doesn't see me as unhinged. Lol
What I'm comfortable showing from my meeting with Avery. Truth is she's staying with me for a few days.
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Unexpected Butterflies
YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs
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August 31, 2025 at 4:59 PM
What I'm comfortable showing from my meeting with Avery. Truth is she's staying with me for a few days.
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I got a hold of Avery, I'm meeting her on Friday. I don't even know what to say or do or how to act. I just want to break down but I can't meet her and be a mess after all that's happened. Wish me luck.
August 27, 2025 at 9:56 PM
I got a hold of Avery, I'm meeting her on Friday. I don't even know what to say or do or how to act. I just want to break down but I can't meet her and be a mess after all that's happened. Wish me luck.
Thank you to everyone I reached out to, it means a lot that you all think kindly of me.
August 20, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Thank you to everyone I reached out to, it means a lot that you all think kindly of me.
I'm moving the Qna to sometime in the future. Write here or in the comments of my last video if there's anything you want to ask me.
Y'all have til Tuesday at 6pm EST.
August 20, 2025 at 2:26 PM
I'm moving the Qna to sometime in the future. Write here or in the comments of my last video if there's anything you want to ask me.
I'm going to be answering any questions given to me. If you have one write it in the comments. If I see it as interesting and not stepping over boundaries I'd be happy to answer.
August 17, 2025 at 4:48 PM
I'm going to be answering any questions given to me. If you have one write it in the comments. If I see it as interesting and not stepping over boundaries I'd be happy to answer.
Well I got confirmation that the ward that I entered near my home on that lone tree was fixed. I was looking outside today and it's gone. I asked my dad where it went and he responded with "what tree", like it never existed at all. I called up T and he said that it's normal.
August 13, 2025 at 12:46 AM
Well I got confirmation that the ward that I entered near my home on that lone tree was fixed. I was looking outside today and it's gone. I asked my dad where it went and he responded with "what tree", like it never existed at all. I called up T and he said that it's normal.
I caught up with Miles last night, we went to a sushi place and drank a whole bottle of sake. It was a fun night. I felt normal for once. We talked a bit about job prospects and such. I'm proud of my lil bro getting his life together. In return I told him I was working as a private courier.
August 11, 2025 at 10:43 AM
I caught up with Miles last night, we went to a sushi place and drank a whole bottle of sake. It was a fun night. I felt normal for once. We talked a bit about job prospects and such. I'm proud of my lil bro getting his life together. In return I told him I was working as a private courier.
I plan on eventually updating you folks again. Though Im going to reach out to some friends I haven't talked to in a long time, well at least on my end. I've been picking up the pieces of myself for a while. I don't think I'll ever feel whole but i do think I'm ready to share a lot of things. Soon.
July 30, 2025 at 11:00 AM
I plan on eventually updating you folks again. Though Im going to reach out to some friends I haven't talked to in a long time, well at least on my end. I've been picking up the pieces of myself for a while. I don't think I'll ever feel whole but i do think I'm ready to share a lot of things. Soon.
I did something last Monday
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Let's Talk About Magick!
YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs
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July 27, 2025 at 7:35 PM
I did something last Monday
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I had another encounter with Chernabog last night, he just watched me while I was sleeping. I woke up and we both stared at each other until I got interrupted by the remnants of my dinner. I have gotten used to how he looks but the way he makes me feel never changes. I need to set up master wards.
July 21, 2025 at 8:29 PM
I had another encounter with Chernabog last night, he just watched me while I was sleeping. I woke up and we both stared at each other until I got interrupted by the remnants of my dinner. I have gotten used to how he looks but the way he makes me feel never changes. I need to set up master wards.
There are a few things I'm not ready to discuss, for now I'm gonna take a rest.
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Through Hills and Hollers
YouTube video by Ivy's Memoirs
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July 20, 2025 at 6:52 PM
There are a few things I'm not ready to discuss, for now I'm gonna take a rest.
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Alright, I don't know when my next update will be, but I'm leaving again. I got to fulfill the role I was given by the Coven. I knew I would have to do this at some point.
June 24, 2025 at 3:04 AM
Alright, I don't know when my next update will be, but I'm leaving again. I got to fulfill the role I was given by the Coven. I knew I would have to do this at some point.
I got interviewed a few weeks back before I returned home, I learned a lot and realized a bit about myself but also this guy is an asshole. I don't recommend going on this podcast.
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Podcast Unknown - Ivy's Memoirs
YouTube video by Darren Wright
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June 18, 2025 at 9:42 PM
I got interviewed a few weeks back before I returned home, I learned a lot and realized a bit about myself but also this guy is an asshole. I don't recommend going on this podcast.
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I just arrived back and unpacked my bags. My dad's out on the road, my mom's busy with her job and Miles is living with Bri. I don't think anyone knows I returned yet. It's different being alone after 5 months of living underground with about 50 people coming and going.
June 9, 2025 at 2:49 PM
I just arrived back and unpacked my bags. My dad's out on the road, my mom's busy with her job and Miles is living with Bri. I don't think anyone knows I returned yet. It's different being alone after 5 months of living underground with about 50 people coming and going.
I get to go home soon, though I will only be back a week or two before I leave again. Mother and the Archivists said I'm ready to leave. I learned a lot of things here. I can somewhat confidently take precautions to protect myself against Chernabog, though I've been told he's still a threat to me.
May 29, 2025 at 7:28 AM
I get to go home soon, though I will only be back a week or two before I leave again. Mother and the Archivists said I'm ready to leave. I learned a lot of things here. I can somewhat confidently take precautions to protect myself against Chernabog, though I've been told he's still a threat to me.
I keep thinking about the reason I was majoring in English lit. I wanted to be a librarian... After I dropped out, I actually applied for an assistant job at the Haven Hills library. I was turned down because I couldn't drive between Haven Hills and its neighboring towns.
May 15, 2025 at 6:08 PM
I keep thinking about the reason I was majoring in English lit. I wanted to be a librarian... After I dropped out, I actually applied for an assistant job at the Haven Hills library. I was turned down because I couldn't drive between Haven Hills and its neighboring towns.
Last night I took part in a vote. It was a split on whether S should continue their duty as an arc. Her lively hood was placed in my hands. As I stared down an audience awaiting an answer. My response. I didn't have one. I told them to let me think about it. I've got a few days to decide....
May 2, 2025 at 4:48 PM
Last night I took part in a vote. It was a split on whether S should continue their duty as an arc. Her lively hood was placed in my hands. As I stared down an audience awaiting an answer. My response. I didn't have one. I told them to let me think about it. I've got a few days to decide....
Everybody seems busy today. I wonder what's going on. It's like everyone's eyes are on me. It's anxiety inducing.
May 1, 2025 at 8:42 PM
Everybody seems busy today. I wonder what's going on. It's like everyone's eyes are on me. It's anxiety inducing.
I'm making faster progress than anyone thought. Grasping these abstract ideas. Everything involves more math and science than I ever thought I'd use on top of steeling some sort of resolve in my mind. This ability I have is something else.
April 19, 2025 at 1:30 AM
I'm making faster progress than anyone thought. Grasping these abstract ideas. Everything involves more math and science than I ever thought I'd use on top of steeling some sort of resolve in my mind. This ability I have is something else.
I'm still frustrated, I can't even focus on meditation. This bothers me and oversteps my boundaries by miles. You're lucky T and M have calmed my senses. I can't believe somebody is as insensitive as you and can be considered a leader.
I'm not fucking around..... I don't want to see you for a good while. Not after last night S.. Your "pranks" are getting out of hand. How could you do that to me..... You said you were getting rid of dead weight. That's messed up, fucking up my personal life.
April 12, 2025 at 3:28 AM
I'm still frustrated, I can't even focus on meditation. This bothers me and oversteps my boundaries by miles. You're lucky T and M have calmed my senses. I can't believe somebody is as insensitive as you and can be considered a leader.
I'm not fucking around..... I don't want to see you for a good while. Not after last night S.. Your "pranks" are getting out of hand. How could you do that to me..... You said you were getting rid of dead weight. That's messed up, fucking up my personal life.
April 7, 2025 at 11:06 PM
I'm not fucking around..... I don't want to see you for a good while. Not after last night S.. Your "pranks" are getting out of hand. How could you do that to me..... You said you were getting rid of dead weight. That's messed up, fucking up my personal life.