I can't lie, even though I've told them otherwise and left them alone I still have feelings for cuo deep down, but they have their own things to deal with and I'm emotionally blocked up and we just don't even talk much less are able to tolerate each other's energy.

Back from 2012 to 2015 I went by ausayn but I deleted the email reactively after falling out with my ex. I've gone through so many emails and usernames from bullying fear and being stalked and mental illness and lack of self confidence it's not even funny.

Happy new year!

I've been going to therapy and talking about my experiences but also my insecurities. Not to mention realizing I have a lot of emotional intelligence compared to other kinds. I've also been intimidated by someone. It seemed like we were like twin flames in my psychosis. But it's all false.

I'm good. Happy holidays.

I can't be online for a while due to personal reasons.

I drew this for my portfolio-- but one day I hope they see this Rottel. It probably won't be the last one.