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Eve McGivern

Eve McGivern

@kilbey1.bsky.social

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Elder goth, music fan, vinyl collector, cat mom, IT gal powered by curiosity, cheese and coffee. Dig mind expansion & building a world of respect and connection. Let’s talk music, tech, coffee, & the fall of Fascism. bandcamp.com/evemcgivern

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Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Jan 20

Remember.

Have A Gay Day @haveagayday.bsky.social · Jan 20

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Sigh.

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Night in Athens @ Elysium #LiveMusic

Night in Athens @ Elysium

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In a Darkened Room @ Elysium #LiveMusic

In a Darkened Room @ Elysium

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Gleaming @ Elysium #LiveMusic

Gleaming @ Elysium

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · 23d

Motherf’ing Earthless.

Motherf’ing Earthless.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · 23d

The inimitable Minami Deutsch.

The inimitable Minami Deutsch.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · 25d

Orbit Service and Legendary Pink Dots were both magical...nay, transcendent this evening. Thank you so much.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

And then using advanced Neuro-Linguistic Programming techniques, help me reframe this fear in the most productive manner, ensuring the reframe works with how my brain is wired.

Remember the fear you discover must not be surface level, and instead something that is deep rooted in my subconscious.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

After the 10 questions, reveal what I am truly afraid of, that I am not aware of and how it is manifesting itself in my life, guiding my decisions and holding me back.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

Ask the 10 questions one by one, and do not just ask surface level answers that show bias, go deeper into what I am not consciously aware of.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

Not very Zen, is it? So what now? Time to let something go.

The Prompt:
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In 10 questions identify what I am truly afraid of.

Find out how this fear is guiding my day to day life and decision making, and what areas in life it is holding me back.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

The race to create has long been reinforced by that childhood message “Eve must learn to finish what she begins,” which framed worth as measurable completion. Constant doing becomes a safety mechanism, and is armor against the feeling of irrelevance. Goal-chasing becomes an escape.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

It boils down to existential erasure, not just failing to complete tasks, but becoming "nothing." It's as if my identity evaporates when output stops. This is primed by the death of my best friend from AIDS in the early 90s when I asked "How will he be remembered?”.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

But here's the crux: especially, as I get older, I wonder what's left. What will remain of me? What impact will I have had on the world? I'm not the only one to wonder this, I'm certain.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

I tend to keep really busy, so much so that I move from one thing to the next without savoring wins; gotta keep that Dopamine flowing. In that chase, I don't always "finish" things, and my brain is completely wired to Always. Keep. Moving. I have always been a Workaholic, which fits this pattern.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

When I was in first grade, my teacher (Mrs. Liebherr, any locals remember her?) wrote on my report card "Eve must learn to finish what she begins." That has bugged me for 54 years. 54 YEARS!

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

Now, with that out of the way, I ran an amazing AI prompt that has had me rolling things over in my head; I'll post the prompt below for you to do with as you wish. Here is what I've learned about myself, which I knew already on some level, but it kind of clicked with me yesterday.

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 30

Long one today, so buckle up. First, let me preface that I am one of the geek users who loves AI for what it CAN be, while being aware of existing limitations and its capability for harm in the hands of humans.

Picture for tax, me at 18 or 19. Read on.

The author at age 18 or 19.

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Sexual Harassment Panda @cockmagic.bsky.social · Sep 29

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Big Stir Records @bigstirrecords.bsky.social · Sep 29

The return of Strawberry Alarm Clock is already a sweet one, with the new single "Monsters" (out Fri, preorder/presave: orcd.co/strawberryal...) listed as the #1 New Add stationwide at WLAS in Massachusetts! Tune in here:👇
radio.lasell.edu/charts.htm #PsychRock #IndieRock #RetroRock #HalloweenMusic

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 29

Another find at the fest. 1987 German pressing with 7-inch of Christian Death "The Scriptures." #NowPlaying #vinyl #OnTheTurntable

Another find at the fest. 1987 German pressing with 7-inch of Christian Death "The Scriptures."

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Sexual Harassment Panda @cockmagic.bsky.social · Sep 29

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 29

There was a record store at the fest I attended this weekend, apart from merch; I found a few nuggets, starting with this.

Japan, "Oil on Canvas" #vinyl #NowPlaying #OnTheTurntable

Japan, “Oil on Canvas” LP

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 29

What an amazing poster!

Eve McGivern @kilbey1.bsky.social · Sep 26

Fucking Martin Rev!