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@learningtodream.bsky.social

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I am relearning to dream again ✨

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Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 16

Had an amazing few days. But I'm kinda waiting for when it all goes wrong again

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 15

This was so delicious! It contained half my protein goals and I am stuffed but so good!

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 14

This choccy cereal bowl was amazing this morning 😍

Ingredients:
Chocolate protein powder
Soy milk
Choco pillows (?)
Strawberries
Blueberries
Hemp seed

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 13

First meal of the day. I even added nutella!

#edbsky #edrecovery

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 13

Okay it was 2 steps backwards and now 10 steps forward! I am very motivated to start real recovery. Again with no help, but let's see how it goes.

Today is the first day of no calorie tracking and trying not to restrict.

I already put soy milk in my coffee!

#edbsky #edrecovery

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 12

My therapist (not and ed therapist) claimed that a bmi of 25-35 isn't overweight and she was an expert because she had weight loss surgery 🤣

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 11

Another win for the ED... Not doing so well. Kind of a whole lot of steps back. I lowered my kcal limit again.

#edtwt #edbsky

(remember I am trying to recover on my own while I wait for help. It's difficult)

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 10

UGHH, I had such a good day but my ED ruined it all.

#edrecovery #edbsky

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"This one is more physical but biking is so much harder than it was in the past before I got sick"

I'm from the Netherlands, I need to be able to bike and I don't have a car

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"If I feel good, I want to do things all at once because I am still scared that I can't do it later"

I'm sure people with chronic illnesses can relate

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"My social skills are non-existent, I feel like an alien among people"

This is why I have no friends

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"I am constantly overstimulated because of being isolated for so long"

Imagine the lockdown being 4 years and then it suddenly stopping

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"I don't have any hobbies or friends. I lost that all when I was sick and I am not sure how to regain it"

This one is awful. I don't know how to meet people!

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

"I am still very scared of doing too much and pacing has become a habit"

"Every bit of movement is so consciously"

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 9

I am not just recovering from and ED, I am also recovering from secundary me/cfs and here's what I have noticed so far.

A thread

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 8

So simple, such a good idea! I need to make one too soon! Think I'll add egg salad spread maybe? :)

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 8

I went for a solo picnic today. And had dinner on my balcony and suddenly, I felt happy, even content 😳

I haven't felt this way in a long time.

#edrecovery #edbsky

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 5

Just hit a bump in my recovery and it sucks. I thought I was doing well but the ED voice won this time. How do I not let this ruin my day?

#edrecovery #edbsky

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 4

Recovery accounts sometimes trigger me more than pro-ed stuff. They always gotta say how bad it got and that they alsmost didn't survive. That's not gonna make me feel like I'm worth recovering cause I'm not that bad, at least that is what my ed says

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky #edbsky

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 2

But you did! Proud of you ❤️

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 1

Struggling a lot with overexercising today. I genuinely love exercise but I overshoot and I get so burnt out. Will not go on a walk, will not go on a walk 😵‍💫

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky #edbsky

Maes @learningtodream.bsky.social · Aug 1

Hey, my name is Maes. I am 27 and in recovery from atypical AN. I have been struggling for 7 years but no one ever cared cause I was a healthy weight.

I am not getting help yet. But really trying to remember that I don't want to get worse in the meantime. Xx

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky