Maes
@learningtodream.bsky.social
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I am relearning to dream again ✨
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Had an amazing few days. But I'm kinda waiting for when it all goes wrong again
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This was so delicious! It contained half my protein goals and I am stuffed but so good!
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This choccy cereal bowl was amazing this morning 😍

Ingredients:
Chocolate protein powder
Soy milk
Choco pillows (?)
Strawberries
Blueberries
Hemp seed
learningtodream.bsky.social
First meal of the day. I even added nutella!

#edbsky #edrecovery
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Okay it was 2 steps backwards and now 10 steps forward! I am very motivated to start real recovery. Again with no help, but let's see how it goes.

Today is the first day of no calorie tracking and trying not to restrict.

I already put soy milk in my coffee!

#edbsky #edrecovery
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My therapist (not and ed therapist) claimed that a bmi of 25-35 isn't overweight and she was an expert because she had weight loss surgery 🤣
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Another win for the ED... Not doing so well. Kind of a whole lot of steps back. I lowered my kcal limit again.

#edtwt #edbsky

(remember I am trying to recover on my own while I wait for help. It's difficult)
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UGHH, I had such a good day but my ED ruined it all.

#edrecovery #edbsky
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"This one is more physical but biking is so much harder than it was in the past before I got sick"

I'm from the Netherlands, I need to be able to bike and I don't have a car
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"If I feel good, I want to do things all at once because I am still scared that I can't do it later"

I'm sure people with chronic illnesses can relate
learningtodream.bsky.social
"My social skills are non-existent, I feel like an alien among people"

This is why I have no friends
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"I am constantly overstimulated because of being isolated for so long"

Imagine the lockdown being 4 years and then it suddenly stopping
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"I don't have any hobbies or friends. I lost that all when I was sick and I am not sure how to regain it"

This one is awful. I don't know how to meet people!
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"I am still very scared of doing too much and pacing has become a habit"

"Every bit of movement is so consciously"
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I am not just recovering from and ED, I am also recovering from secundary me/cfs and here's what I have noticed so far.

A thread
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So simple, such a good idea! I need to make one too soon! Think I'll add egg salad spread maybe? :)
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I went for a solo picnic today. And had dinner on my balcony and suddenly, I felt happy, even content 😳

I haven't felt this way in a long time.

#edrecovery #edbsky
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Just hit a bump in my recovery and it sucks. I thought I was doing well but the ED voice won this time. How do I not let this ruin my day?

#edrecovery #edbsky
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Recovery accounts sometimes trigger me more than pro-ed stuff. They always gotta say how bad it got and that they alsmost didn't survive. That's not gonna make me feel like I'm worth recovering cause I'm not that bad, at least that is what my ed says

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky #edbsky
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But you did! Proud of you ❤️
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Struggling a lot with overexercising today. I genuinely love exercise but I overshoot and I get so burnt out. Will not go on a walk, will not go on a walk 😵‍💫

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky #edbsky
learningtodream.bsky.social
Hey, my name is Maes. I am 27 and in recovery from atypical AN. I have been struggling for 7 years but no one ever cared cause I was a healthy weight.

I am not getting help yet. But really trying to remember that I don't want to get worse in the meantime. Xx

#edrecovery #edrecoverybsky